{"id":1011,"date":"2007-01-26T08:21:00","date_gmt":"2007-01-26T12:21:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/johncohn.org\/base\/2007\/01\/26\/thursday-eveing-back-at-the-hotel\/"},"modified":"2007-01-26T08:21:00","modified_gmt":"2007-01-26T12:21:00","slug":"thursday-eveing-back-at-the-hotel","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/johncohn.org\/base\/2007\/01\/26\/thursday-eveing-back-at-the-hotel\/","title":{"rendered":"Thursday eveing- back at the hotel"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Sigh… I just wrote a longish post, then lost it all when my browser failed. I’ll try to re-type it from memory. This is a pretty Zen exercise…<\/p>\n

I Just got back from to the hotel from my all day meeting. On the bus back, I was telling my friend Wolfgang that I felt funny several times today because I found myself feeling ‘normal’. sometimes .  It wasn’t that Sam was not on my mind. I was thinking about him all day. It was just that I found myself getting really into some good technical discussions, and it felt pretty good to be enjoying my work again.
   On the people front, the day was amazing. I must have been hugged by about 50 friends. Our sadness of losing of Sam hits such a universal chord in people that it cuts right through the normal business protocol of quick handshakes. On top of that, I didn’t feel like running around trying to say ‘hi’ to everyone as I would normally do. The combination allowed me to have good, long conversations with several friends about Sam, their families, life priorities, etc. Even though I normally find these meetings exhausting,  <\/span>I found today strangely relaxing…
   <\/span>I had an interesting intersection between work and life this afternoon. There was a talk and panel this afternoon which touched on on-line collaborative communities such as MySpace and SecondLife. After the session., I talked to two of the panelists, my friends and mentors Katherine and Irving., about our experience with MySpace. I told them how Sam’s MySpace had turned out to be such a wonderful way for Sam’s friends to come together to mourn, and heal\u2026 I also told them about how much my MySpace blogging had meant to me during this hard time. I think it would be fun to help companies like mine create something like MySpace to use too help build their own internal communities.  <\/span>I was just starting to play around with SecondLife just before Sam died. In Second life I look like this:<\/p>\n

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     Wow… <\/span>I just spoke with Diane and she told me that our very close friend Mason was in a car accident today on the Richmond-Huntngton road. Thanks g-d Mason was not hurt, but his car was totatled when it slipped on a patch of ice, spun out and hit a tree. Mason told Diane that he had a vision of Sam as the car hit the tree and the airbags came out. I was so freaked out when I heard about  <\/span>the  <\/span>accident that I was shaking. Mason and his family are so close to us.. I am so glad that you’re OK Mason.. we love you !  <\/span>Thanks for protecting him Sam !<\/p>\n

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ps. Diane also told me that while she was up at Jen’s painting SamStones today a part of my blog from yesterday came up. I had said: <\/o:p><\/p>\n

I’ve had several people ask my why we’re choosing to be so public about our grieving.. I really don’t have an answer.. we’re just doing what feels right to us. Our friend Jean suggested that people grieve the way they live.. .. and I guess we’re public people<\/i>\u2026<\/p>\n

I guess the part about us being ‘public people’ didn’t come out right. I didn’t mean that the  <\/span>outpouring of love from our community was because we were public people.. That was because Sam was who he was\u2026   <\/span>All the folks who are wearing  <\/span>Sam’s picture or  <\/span>helping us make SamStones.. or writing his name in the snow are publicly showing the world how much they care about Sam and miss him.. . And I’m missing him very much right now.. Here’s a picture of him as ‘Wonderboy’ at Camp<\/st1:placetype> Abnaki<\/st1:placename><\/st1:place> last Summer. I love you so much my son..<\/p>\n

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