{"id":1148,"date":"2009-12-07T01:41:00","date_gmt":"2009-12-07T05:41:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/johncohn.org\/base\/2009\/12\/07\/sunday-night-muddled\/"},"modified":"2009-12-07T01:41:00","modified_gmt":"2009-12-07T05:41:00","slug":"sunday-night-muddled","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/johncohn.org\/base\/2009\/12\/07\/sunday-night-muddled\/","title":{"rendered":"Sunday night – Muddled"},"content":{"rendered":"
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\t\t\t\t\t\t I spent all day working .. as in IBM working. I am trying to pull together a short presentation on something that I am both knowledgeable and passionate about. .. yet I am really struggling to put words to paper. What I’m realizing is that even though my brain seems to be working close to 100 % these days.. I’ve never really gotten back the ability to read or write much\u00a0 since Sam’s passing. I used to read every night.. I’d always have several books going at any one time and probably read 30-50 each year.. now I’m lucky if I read 34 a year. Similarly, UI used to be able to knock out a set of powerpoint\u00a0 charts in minutes if I knew what I wanted to say.. now it takes me hours or days.. I do a ton of staring at the blank screen, struggling to put one word after the other…<\/p>\n

Now.. I know it sounds sort of silly given that I have no problem blogging every night.. but here, I’m not trying to convince, explain or teach anything in a linear way. I had thought it was something related to my diminished cognitive\u00a0 function\u00a0 after Sam died.. .. but .. as I just said.. my thinking feels pretty clear these days.\u00a0\u00a0 It’s more like I caught a mild case of dyslexia.. Is that possible ?<\/p>\n

Or.. am I just lazy ? <\/p>\n

nite folks, nite Sam
-me<\/p>\n

Tell me to get back to work…<\/p>\n

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