{"id":1737,"date":"2011-01-05T20:50:07","date_gmt":"2011-01-06T00:50:07","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/johncohn.org\/base\/?p=1737"},"modified":"2011-01-05T21:01:04","modified_gmt":"2011-01-06T01:01:04","slug":"1737","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/johncohn.org\/base\/2011\/01\/05\/1737\/","title":{"rendered":"Wednesday night – that guy"},"content":{"rendered":"

I worked at home all day… and alternated work calls with finishing up a talk I need to give on Friday morning. As part of pulling together that talk, I found\u00a0 a picture of myself taken about\u00a0 months before Sam died.<\/p>\n

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I know this picture well. It was taken when I got my last promotion t work . I slapped it into my tlak.. and didn’t think much of it.. but then a few minutes later I went back and stared at it. … I had this strong sense that I wanted to somehow reach back in time and…. what ? .. Tell him what was going to happen ? .. protect him from what was going to happen .. ? .,, .. It was a strange helpless feelign.. knowing thta there was nothign I could do from this point in the futre.<\/p>\n

Instead, I sent this guy as much love as I could.. I wished him healing and strength.. I told him that while it would never be ‘all right .. he would survive.. even go on to thrive..<\/p>\n

I am eaming a message to my future self to remember to look back on my present slef.. and do the same thing for me..<\/p>\n

nite all<\/p>\n

nite Sam<\/p>\n

-me<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I worked at home all day… and alternated work calls with finishing up a talk I need to give on Friday morning. As part of pulling together that talk, I found\u00a0 a picture of myself taken about\u00a0 months before Sam died. I know this picture well. It was taken when I got my last promotion … Continue reading Wednesday night – that guy<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[11],"class_list":["post-1737","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","tag-sam-photo-time"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/johncohn.org\/base\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1737","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/johncohn.org\/base\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/johncohn.org\/base\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/johncohn.org\/base\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/johncohn.org\/base\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1737"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"http:\/\/johncohn.org\/base\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1737\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1740,"href":"http:\/\/johncohn.org\/base\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1737\/revisions\/1740"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/johncohn.org\/base\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1737"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/johncohn.org\/base\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1737"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/johncohn.org\/base\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1737"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}