Here I am again.. 11PM sitting down to write when I should be going to sleep. Again I had to get some day work done at home.. and again.. it’s pushing my night later..   I can feel my life accelerating again and I really don’t want that to happen.. not yet at least.

   I got three pieces of sad news today. First I heard that my friend Joe K’s mother-in-law passed away in Lebanon last night. Joe and his wife are expecting there first baby in less than a month. They  were/are in Lebanon visiting his wife’s mother because she was ill.    An hour or so later I heard through a friend that an old soccer friend of Diane’s, Debo Laplante,  died in a car accident in Connecticut this week. Debo and Diane played on the same soccer team in 1982-1983. Just an hour later, I got a note from my friend Craig in the ‘Fathers Forever’ group,  He told me that  the 14 year old son of a friend of his died suddenly while playing Lacrosse last week.  Last week we also got the sad news that Rita from up at Bolton had died. I didn’t know her.. but I knew that she’d come to Sam’s viewing..

   Even though I don’t know these people well or at all.. their passing hits me hard. It no longer is just ‘news’ when I hear a story like this. My heart goes immediately to the person and their family. I then carry them around with me for days. I wish that I could stop the pain that other people have to feel… Its funny,  somehow I convince myself that I can bear anything.. but I can’t bear to think of people that I know and having their hearts broken.. I think it’s easier to worry about others than to worry about yourself..  Sometimes I worry about myself too..

My heart goes out to all of these people. Sam.. not sure where you are.. but if you have any sway with the powers that be.. please help these folks with their journey..   Namaste..

-jc

ps. Gabe carved these hearts out of an apple for Diane and me