Almost 1Am and I’m just sitting down to blog. Even worse.. I can’t find any glasses.. this will prove once and for all if I can really touch type. My eyes have gotten so bad that I can’t read what I’m typing   (Luckily the font on the spell checker IS big enough to read) . 

 

Not really that much to report today.. I’m in such an altered mental state today.. I can’t really remember much that happened … one thing that’s interesting is that I seem to be getting some really weird and powerful mixed signals for the cosmos.. Normally (when was the last time that word applied?!) .. Normally.. when things are going really well for me.. That is.. my energies are aligned with my life’s purpose.. and I’m more or less harmonious with the world.. lots of really good things start happening to me.. lots of interesting coincidences start popping up.. everything seems to converge. Conversely.. when I’m feeling bad.. I feel out of synch with the world.. and nothing works.. nothing lines up.   I’ve always called this aligning with (or not aligning with) ‘the matrix’..( and  I have been calling it that for more than 32  years.. long before Neo showed up)

The last couple of days I’ve sensing  a pattern that I never remember seeing before.. I feel really low.. particularly about my work.. yet at the same time.. I’m getting a strong cosmic message that I’m in the right path.   On the work part.. I can’t hjelp feeling that I’m leaving so many loose ends at my work.. I’ve really not been effective over the past 10 months .. and all the things I’ve been trying to push forward seem to be falling apart just asI try to switch hears. Part of me wants to stay and try to fx everything.. the other part.. the wiser part.. tells me that I simply can’t..   It really gets me down.. I woke up many time last night thinking about how badly I’ve screwed up   .. On the other hand though.. I’m getting a tremendously good feeling about the new direction I’m taking. Not for any specific reason.. but for the way I’m feeling the world react to my decision to take a break. My coincidence-o-meter is pegged.. the last couple of days have been jam packed with unexplainable connections  . Normally this would mean that I was perfectly aligned with the world and everything was falling into place. When that happens I feel like I’m riding the crest of a powerful wave…  Right now though.. I feel like I’m in a deep rut..  Avery few of these coincidences  include:

– a call from out of the blue from my  old friend Jay   He’s been writing a new (and really excellent) ‘holistic engineering’ text for college undergraduates. He was calling to ask me to help write a version of this book for us in high schools.. Wouldn’t that be cool (though Dinae reminds me that the four books I’ve helped write have been among the worst experiences of my lifeJ .. ). It’s a coincidence of sorts that this type of outreach activity would land on my lap just as I’m about to start this ‘sabbatical’ at ibm on outreach… But it’s stranger than that.. Jay wants the two of us to collaborate on the book with his brother’s  old college roommate… who’s now the director of the Boston Museum of Science.. who happens to be a friend of my mother’s.. and she’s been trying to  introduce us for a couple of years (Mom.. it’s Yannis)

– Yesterday I was talking to a new friend Courtney C. from California. Courtney has created a program called Science Buddies (http://www.sciencebuddies.org/_ )   which helps kids find science fair project ideas. My friend Craig from AMD had gotten us together around the idea of getting  graduate students in the US to help mentor these projects..  It turns out the Courtney had been pitching this idea to a woman in IBM Almaden who told her she needed to talk to someone in Stan L’s area in IBM’s Corporate Citizenhip and Corporate Affairs .. That will be my department come Nov 1.

 

-About 15 minutes into the call I mentioned a friend of mine that made a business of  of selling those tri-fold cardboard backdrops for science fairs.. She immediately knew I was talking about my biddy Mark O.. She’d just met with him a few days ago in California.. I had lunch with him last Friday in Burling. And Mark lives in Tampa.. pretty freaky.

– Stranger still a few days back.. maybe a week and a half ago.. I called Courtney.. and she told me she was at the NextFest technology fair in LA..   /. The day before I had connected with my old gradate school buddy Paul D.. who I hadn’t spoken with in years. Paul had just moves to Redmond to work for Microsoft.. He also had told me he was going to Next Fest.. I mentioned to Courtney to look out for Paul.. she told me that they’d already met.. in fact they were in adjacent stalls in this huge exhibition center and had been talking all day.

 

– Speaking of Mark. O. I was standing at my window at work today looking at two deer who were right outside the window.. That was strange enough.. but as I stood there.. a guy I’d never seen come up to me and introduced himself as Tom R.. He was a boyhood friend of the same Mark O’s.. he just wanted to introduce himself.

-As part of my new rotational job I’ve been asked to help brainstorm on how video game technology might be used to help kids understand environmental issues.. Completely coincidently I was asked  today to join a brainstorming session n that exact topic with the Echo center.. and my new friends at Champlain College

 

Actually.. the list keeps on going.. it may not sem like much to you gentle reader.. but too me.. there’s a powerful magic when this many things start to align  I should also say that I feel that Sam so strongly in all of these connections. I can’t explain how.. but I fel him so powerfully right now..

 

OK.. I’m rambling.. It’s almost 2 and I need to sleep.. How this is legiblele and intelligible.. I can’t read it without my glasses..   

 

Gnite all. Gnite Sam

 

-me