Busy day today. I managed to get many things done.. but somehow was in a fog just the same. I went in to my Burlington office for the first time in several weeks. I’ve been on-site a few times, but haven’t made it upstairs to my actual desk.  been either  working from home, traveling in NY, at meeting in town (e.g. Champlain) or on vacation. It felt really weird to be walking around work.. Just like my experience with shopping, I’m observing that I don’t necessarily want to be seen. I catch  myself ‘slinking’ down the hall hoping not to run into anyone I know… And not running into anyone I know is sort of impossible for me.. anywhere.  I say “I’m observing” this about myself, because I’m trying not to judge which of my current reactions to life are good or bad. They just are.. I’m guessing that my current new shyness is also a little about the season. maybe it will pass.. or maybe this is who I’m becoming.. we’ll see.

   Again, my day was productive but not noteworthy… I like these kind of days now.   I got home a little late and joined Dines 6PM Yoga class already in progress… She really worked us today… I love that class. When we came back in I listened to a  message from Avery about a Sam moment she had yesterday. (You can listen to it here) I’m having and hearing of so many of these wierd coincidences in the past weeks. Our Antennae are up !

While I was recording Avery’s message, I lifted a copy of the message that’s still on our voicemail at home.. (listen here)  I like listening to it.. Eventually, I guess we should change it.. but I don’t want to yet. You can even here our old bird Gabby in the background..

Another audio story… I’m trying to get back into the regular meditation practice that I’ve done for years… I was wondering struggling to lie down and do it.. When I finally did last night I realized how deep the associations I had with my old favorite meditation music.. most folks repeat something.. a mantra…  to themselves to help them shut out idle chatter in their minds and help them focus . My mantra with this music was always ‘… diane..  max.. sam.. gabe … diane.. max.. sam.. gabe… ‘ . I realize I was avoiding the music .. and my meditation.. because I felt the mantra would make me sad…    As soon as I tried it again I found that it actually made me happy.   My love for my family is still and will always be whole…

Well.. gotta go and meditate now.. Namaste folks.. namaste Sam.

-me