No pictures.. and no glasses. Tonight will have to be short.. I woke this morning resolved to start thinking about returning to my old job at the end of Feb. In that spirit I decided to go nto the plant and try working at my desk.. Most days I’ve been working at home or at Champlain. When I do go into IBM I’ve usually locked myself in my room … I feel sort of ‘exposed’ walking through the halls… so I try to avoid doing it. Beleive it or not.. I don’t always  like being the center of attention 

Today I resolved to try and get over it. I spent a good portion of the day at my desk.. my office is still piled floor to ceiling with junk from all the stuff I moved in from my old office. I have pictures of all our kids all over the office now.. That was nice and sad at the same time. I spent a while just goign through the photos.

I spent a few hours  wandering the halls trying to find out what was going on with some of my old projects. In doing that I had to walk int placed in the buildings that  I hadn’t been for more than a year.. since before Sam died..   Rather than being akward.. it was really nice.. no one seemed shocked to see me.. no one bombarded me with questions.. folks just seemed happy to see me.. I ended up having a bunch of ‘normal’ conversations about work, life, people…. nothing too intense..It felt good…  

In the same spirit, I had another good conversation with my boss. He and the rest of my management are being incredibly understanding about my situation.. They’re encouraging me without pressuring me… I couldn’t ask for better support.. 

Anyway .. The day passed quickly.. Not much concrete to report there…  I got home in time for yoga.. then we came back in and made dinner for Gabe, Alex and Mason… Just after dinner my new old friend Milton called to continue our catching up. I haven’t seen Milton in about 25 years…   He called me out of the blue a couple of days back. We’ve spent a few days catching up with each other.. it’s so interesting trying to compress your whole life in a half hour call.. It’s hard to frame everything in light of Sam’s passing.. I tried to convey the mix of a great life, a great family  and a great tragedy.. ,  That’s our life….

OK.. now I gotta get the recycling out.. More tomorrow… Gnite all.. gnite Sam
-me

He’s looking for some job leads in Austin… anyone reading this know of some process enginering jobs in Austin ?