So… I’ve been thinking about how to get back in the cosmic groove that I so much need to be in. I’ve had several good friends point out to me recently how I seem to be constantly  justifying  to myself  why my situation and mindset have to be just the way they are. I’m realizing that I’ve become much less open to the world in the last year. This time last year,we were struggling as we approached the first anniversary of Sam’s passing.. even so, I felt open and alive. I was determined to take my grief and hammer it into something good and useful for me and the world. I put that intention out there and a mountian of possibilities and opportunites showed up. It happened in just about every facet of my life. Just in the area of workign with kids and science a ton of things opened up::e,g,  the champlain project, the echo porjects, the UVM Board, the ISCAS and ISCCC  conference invitations, burning man with Max, the pumpkin project, the breathing game with UVM and Champlain. 
   THis year I’m approachign this sad time feeling much more subdued and .. I don’t know.. dull ? .. I’v ebeen thing a bunch about it.. in fact.. I’m taking the next 2 weeks off form work to think about nothing else… My gaol is to get back in touch with what I need to be doing.. and what I want to be doing..   I’m feelign better just by making that committemnet to think about these things…
    I was lying in bed last night thinking about it when a small insight popped into my head. I was htinkign about the short TV interview that WCAX did of me abotu doing the Huanted Forest Pumpkin guy as a tribbute t Sam.. The last thing I said in that interview was “… at it’s essense, life is about love and fun… really ”  .. Now there’s something fr me to think about..  Right now though.. I gotta sleep
Nite all.. Nite Sam !
-me