Nov 18, 2006.. that was the last day that I remember being ‘whole’ . Tomorrow, the 19th, is the day we got the call that Sam had been in an accident. TThe time has passed in such  surreal way since then . In many ways.. it has passed unbearably slowly..  Every day has been a small… .. i don’t know.. a small death.. every morning I wake up to the realization that Sam is gone.. . .. and I realize I’m something less than I was.. On  the other hand.. It has  passed so very quickly. The events right before and right after that moment are drawn in my
mind in such detail I guess it’s because I run them over in my mind so
frequently . My family, friends, colleagues continue to move forward in time, while my life is still tethered to Nov 19-21 2006..  It seems like some sort of wierd physics…

I feel so differnt….  But not completely bad different.. just differnt.
I miss Sam so, so much.

So now what ? Not sure what the rest os the week will bring…

Today was pretty chill.. I managed to stay ff of work and emal.. I di soem projects around the house.. I rewrote the code for the hardware interface for the viideo game we’re  writing for the  cystic fibrosis kids…   Then I worked ont he light suits that Gabe and John K will wear in circus on Friday..   Here’s Gabe showing off in the lights….

OK..   that’s all I can think about today.. more tomorrow…
Nite folks.. nite Sam
-me