Amazing thing.. I was actually confused yesterday.. tomorrow is actually the anniversary of Sam’s accident. I always have trouble pinning down the date. Maybe because he left us over a three day period.. the 20th was the accident, the 21st he was declared legally dead, and the 22nd was the day of his organ donations.  Actually.. it’s more likely hard to remember because it’s hard for me to think of at all. These pst few das have sharpened my memory.. and that’s hard.
    I spent a good part of the day talking to sam.. soemtimes in my head and soemtimes out loud. It felt prety good. It also felt good that several folks remebrerd and reached out to me/us . I know that all of our freinds and famiy think of Sam often.. It’s just really amazed me that folks would remember the date.. I am… we are… very. very greatful and bouyed by everyones thoguts , visits and prayers.. It makes me feel good that in our wide support network we’re getting the wishes of several gods, godesses and peaceful spirits from every corner of the world.   I feel really blessed to have the such supportive family , freinds and community. I cna honestly say that I don’t think I would have survived without that… I feel a great debt of gratitude to the world for thta support.. and It’s shaping my future.
    I ran into Jane today while I was out running with the dogs. We were talking about how loss can strengthen people.. or destroy them… most days I think I’m getting stronger.  I like to think that Sam’s proud of how we’re doing.. I like to think  he’s  proud to see that Diane and I are still living fully.. that his brothers are doing well and having fun in their lives.. I like to think  he likes what we and all his freinds are doing to keep his spirit moving through the world. .. I like to think……  I like to think..
     OK.. That’s all for tonight.. Thaksagain to all of you wh are sendign their good wishes.. we really appreciate it.

Good night my friends.. Good night Sam. my beautiul boy…
-jc