We’ve had a wonderfully quiet and uneventful day.. We woke up to a cold (-7) and bright morning… Diane got up much earlier so all three dogs climbed in bed with me. I felt like staying there all day… but managed to pry myself out of there around 9. By the time we had Gabe and his friends up at the mountain it was 11..
At that point Diane and I started working on the travel logistics for my talk in San Fran on Feb 9th… which is also my 50th birthday. In fact, my talk is scheduled 50 years to the hour from my birth. Thinking about getting out there got me thinking about this upcoming birthday which is something I’ve been doing quite a bit lately.Society tells us that 50 is a big deal. So… how will it feel ? Will I feel suddenly old ? Will I freak out and some sort of mid-life crisis ? I can’t predict the future.. but I don’t think it’s going to be like that. I’m feeling pretty good about where I am in life right now. Sam’s passing has changed so much for me. I miss him so much…. yet at the same time, I’ve found a strange sort of peace. I think his death fundamentally changed my priorities. At this point I don’t think there’s anything more I need in my life.. I love my family, I don’t need more things, I like my place in my community…I feel fit… I have more interests than I have time for and I love my profession.. Sure, money is a bit tight as it is for everyone .. but … we have what we need… . …and I need to do better at aligning my work and my passions… but I’m working that… I think I’m going to like being 50….
Now… I do want to do some things this year to mark turning 50… I’ve been trying to come up with some ideas.. Maybe a trip with my family ? Maybe a retreat somewhere I’m still thinking.. and . I’m open for suggestions… I’ve got time to think about this.. My birthday is still a month off. .. and I need to spend much of the time between now and then gettign ready for that talk in San Fransisco…
Speaking of which.. my talk beckons.. back to work.. More tomorrow.. Nite friends.. nite Sam..
-me