Monday night – Lights

It’s a good week of lights.. chanukah candles every night, the xmas tree now lit up, and the canldle for Sam last night. And.. I’m staring into a roaring fire in the fireplace as I type. I love having these bright sparks in the house on this 2nd darkest week of the year (I think it would be.. since solstice is next week) .

Here’s Saurdays ‘s chanukah lighting .. Dylan and Gabe do the honors..

along with Latke dinner number 1 (or was this two).. Diane’s latkes are great..   I can smell them now.. We have some left over in the fridge.. bit if I get up and eat one  now I’ll regret it. You can’t fall asleep after eating those things cold.

Kristen and Gabe do the honor last night…

and of course we lit the candle in Sam’s memory. Thanks ot all of you out there who wrote to tell me you’d lit a candle for us too. I like thinking of all those candles side by side lighting up the planet..

Here’s a still life in mixed cultures.. the christmas tree, the menorah, and the memorial candle for sam.. That just about sums up our lives.. joys and sorrows, .. It’s a rich soup to be sure.

After candles came the obligatory game of Dreidel the wooden top used as a gambling device on Chanukah. Story goes that the Assyrians forbade the jews to study the torah.. so the jews pretended to be gambling every time the Assyrians came into their studies. Leave it to the jews to make up a game that was more boring than studying.. !

Ah.. but there was one moment of excitement !.. My dredel spin landed on the edge of the top !.. How often does THAT happen ?

THat was all last night.. today was a long interesting day.. The first half I spent in meetings.. and the second half I psent hosting some students from Olin College.. The Olin kids were amazingly, amazingly bright and fun.. they told me about their research projects.. and we told them about IBM.   They are working on somehting very central to my new project at work. it was one of those cosmic alignments that seme to be happening to me ofent now.. I really look forward to collaborating with them.

They even weighed in on the rap video I am still trying to finsih !

One quick funny story from today. Late this morning I was sitting in my office tryign to do several things at one. I noticed my plants were a bit dry.. so I looked around for something to carry water.. Aha !.. My garbage can.. I dumped the garbage on the floor and went down to teh restroom to fill up the can with water.. I never asked myself if the can could hold water.. answer was that it couldn’t.. By the time I got back to my office.. I was soaked.. I quickly started bailing the water into my plants to prevent further leaks.  That seemd to help ntil I realized I’d badly overfilled my plants with water.. so they started gusihng out on the floor with dirt filled water.. I bolted out of the room to go get paper towels..As the door clicked shut, I remembered  that my keys and my cell phoen were sftly in my jacket pocket inside. What’s more my admin Kay was at lunch. and sh has the only other key..

I had to go find her at lunch .. on my way back I ran into my Olin quests.. l I was dripping wet and covered with dirt.   The great thing about it i was that everything went better from that point on  🙂

OK.. gotta sleep. nite friends, Night Sam !
-me

Sunday afternoon – Candle lighting tonight

Friends,
     Tonight is the 13th annual Compassionate Friends candle lighting in memory of kids that have died. Compassionate friends is a worldwide organization that provides peer

grief counseling to families who have experienced he death of a child.

We ask you to join us and light a candle at 7pm your local time in memory of our Sam.. and all the other kids who have died.. Do it with love and remember how these kids lit up our lives while they were living.. and how they continue to shine love into our lives after they’re gone from this life.

I honestly don’t know much first-hand about Compassionate friends. All that I know I heard from the many friends who suggested we seek them out after Sam died. There are chapters in cities across the planet.. I know there’s at least one here in Vermont.  Honestly, I never went because early on, i wasn’t sure I could take the pain of hearing from others stories. Now I realize I like to talking to othes in this messed-up club.. there are things you can say to folks with this common hard experience that you can’t really share with others.

When I light a candle tonight I’ll also be thinking of all those mothers and fathers,  , sisters  and brothers grandparents , friends.. even the pets who’ve gone down this very hard road.

Thanks for helping us out here freinds. remember 7PM…
Nite all.. nite Sam.. were’ thinking of you tonight.. and every night !
-me

Saturday afternoon – middle season

Ahhh.. the end of the ‘middle season’. That’s the time up here between good running in the summer/fall  and good snowshoeing.  In october and November, its usually too dark for me to run in the moring or after work.. and there’s not yet enough snow to snowshoe.. That’s why I call it ‘middle season’.. but also because I can feel myself thickening in the middle a little because I’m not getting enough exercise..    Today couldn’t have come soon enough.. we got in our first snowshoe after dropping Gabe off at his snowboarding team practice in Stowe. He’s doing a program there every Sat and Sun to work on his jumps and rails riding.. so far he really loves it. 
    Diane and I took the dogs up VT 108  (the mountian road)  today. The moutnian road is closed during the snow season since it would be impossible to keep snow free. It climbs from Stowe up to about 2200 feet and then heads back down to Smugglers Notch ski area. In the summer they’re about 5 miles apart. In the winter…it’s 50 miles. Our house happens to be the exact mid-point by distance from the loop that goes over the notch.

The notch was a favorite smugglers route at many times in history.. most recently for folks bringing whiskey down from Canada during prohibition.

   Today there was a good 6-8 inches of snow at the base.. a little more at the top. Normally there would eb much more by this time of the year.

The hike up was beautiful .. In the high teens and pretty still.. As

soon as we hit the top, the wind started blowing and the temp started

dropping .

We found this cool rock outcropping near the top we thoguht looked like a resting panther or lion.. do you see it ?

We got back to the car about an hour before Gabe’s program was over.. so we hung out in the car with the dogs which was pretty peaceful.   Diane poured two mugs of steaming tea..

Which I used to melt the ice in my beard…

Then Diane did Yoga in the car using the power seats to help her tie herself up like a pretzel

While I played with the fake mustache Gabe had put on the mirror in the car..  


Nice morning…

Now I’m sitting in the empty house figuring out what to do next.. I know.. maybe ‘nothing’ !:-)

laer folks, nite Sam
-me

ps. Friends, Tomorrow is the annual Compassionate freinds worldwide candle lighting in memory of children who have die. Please light a candel for our beutiful Sam and all of those other kids at 7PM tomorrow.   It’s a nice way to spread soem love and light in this dark time of the year ! Thanks for keeping us all in your hearts.

-jc

thursday night – no camera

I forgot to take  a camrea with me today.. That’s a strange thing becaus eI use thta thing to record my day. Looking at the pictures helps me remember what I did that day. Without those pictures I sit here not sure that I did ANYTHING.. I must have.. bu i have no PROOF !

I seem to remember something about goign to the dentist at 7am.. I was suprised to see people up and smiling at that hour.. If I’m up then it’s because I’m still up fro the previous night. I sat down to wait y turn.. momentarily the dental lady came in and said “john” and I dutifully follwed here.. it wasn’t until shed poked and prodded me a bit that we both realized I wasn’t the john she was looking for.. that john needed xrays and cleaning.. this john had just had that done a few weeks back.

I must confess I was a little tempted to fall into the identity of the other John and see where his day would take him.. but ultimately I wimped out.

Thew erest of the day was a total catch up day.. meetings all day while I tried to dig myslef out of the whol of not handling email yesterday.. it seems it takes a day to catch up from a day off line .. I was pretty sleepy through midday..but I managed to get myself caught back up… at least with email.. if not with sleep…

In my email I did find:

 a cool pointer to a video that had been made from the the CUSP conference I presented at in Sept…  https://www.cuspconference.com/2009/#Cusp%20Conference

also a great podcast interview for the ionic Genius Roundtable

as well as two letters from long ost freinds..

not bad

Around 7 this eveing  Diane and I went to Essex High School to do a Lssons of the Colony talk.. 75 very cool and geeky folks there to support the loval robotics team. It was great.. I think I spoke for 2 hours.. then folks hung out and asked even more questions.   It was my 7th Colony talk.. they are so much fun to do..

Afterwards I had a minor swarm of students around me asking me geeky questions.. it simply doesn not get better than that !

Now I’m struggling to stay awake.. gotta sleep.. so more later.. Night all.. Night Sam !
-me