On my wyay home tonight after a quick drive to NY.. I was thinking about Sam and his birthday.. and what that means and doesn’t mean. I’m trying to just go with whatever comes to me this week… happy/ sad/ neutral.. My struggle is not to over think .. even not to overthink the whole ‘go with the flow’ thing..Anyway..

As I got home, I was wondering what I’d say about my frame of mind tonight..  A mix of sad / strong / resolved / tired.. I couldn’t figure out what to say…   then I was saved the trouble.. I found a letter from Stacy. Parer’s om.. She’d found two pictures of Parker and Sam in a middle school (6 grade ?) show..

I like seeign how happy the boys are

I think that’s what I’m thinking..
love you all.. love you Sam
– me