None of us slept well last night.. I went to sleep around 1:30 , Gabe and Diane were both up from about 2 til 4. .. I had a hard time getting myself out of bed this morning.. Work was excruciating.. I had zero resiliance, zero tolerence and zero patience all day.. I had to stop myself several times to take a walk and shake it off.. I couldn’t figure out what was up…

It just dawned on me that after all the bitter/sweet fun of the weekend.. I hadn’t really skipped a beat..  We marked Sam’s birthday…. and that felt good.. but I never stopped to be sad/mad/depressed… I don’t think I let myself.. I think it just caught up with me..
I guess that’s natural.. ope tomorrow’s better.. Maybe sleep will help

Nite freind.. Nite Sam
-me

ps. Our friend Avery celebrated high school graduation by jumping out of plane !  Now that’s something Sam would do !