I’m eing very careful this week.. as the days click by till Sunday’s 4th anniversary of Sam’s passing.. I am trying to take it easy and keep my strength up. I’ve been meditating every day.. and trying to get good sleep

It’s hard .. my mind keeps slipping back to this week four years ago.. Sam must have already been in Florida by now.. I’d already seen him for the last time. what an impossible thought…

But.. this is now.. i miss sam every day.. will I miss him more on the 21st ? I don’t know.

Last night I wrote a bunch of Python code to back up my blog. @#$% myspace is changing all their interfaces and I may loose my ability to go back to earlier entries by date.. As I tested my code, i saw the titles swing by.. I even read a few of my early entries..

It was too painful in parts to keep reading.. and really fun and uplifting in others..
I feel like print it all out in a book or something..

Right now.. I think I’ll go sleep..

more later..
nite all.. nite sam…
-me