Four years ago tonight we got that terrible call. Sam had been hit by a car.. and would never recover..
Every parents worst fear…. and it had happened.. it had happened to our beautiful son.. In the infinite number of things that do and don’t happen.. why sam.. why our wonderful , beautiful sam..

We’ll never know that… … I know.

Today has been a good day.. I spent most of it by myself, thinking of sam.. what a great kid, his smile, his sense of humor, his music… his physical grace..   I can see his face as brightly now as I could when I could hold him. I cna here his voice.. I cannot hug him though.. and that longing is with me every minute of every day.

Today is only different because the rest of the world takes a few moments to check in with us and remind us that they, too still carry Sam in ther hearts.. and that means the world to us..   Thanks to all of you who are thinking of sam.. and of our family over these next few days..

Tomorrow we’ll be doing our traditional hike up Bolton mountain in Sam’s memory. Anyone is welcome to join us.. we’ll be taking off from the base lodge at noon.. then meeting back at the house for pot-luck dinner and samstones at 6.   Please join us if you feel you’d like to be with us.

Even if you can’t come.. I invite you to spend a few minutes and think of sam.. remember the cool kid he is/was.. and invite some of his laughing, warm and crazy spirit into your own lives.. Hug your kids.. and think of us.   Thanks in part to all of you.. we’re doing well .. and living our lives fully.

I want to share one think with everyone.. I posted this last year as well. This is the last phone message I got from Sam..  He left me this message late this same afternoon in 2006
I love hearing his voice..

http://www.samstones.org/music/sammsg_v3.mp3

nite all.. Good night my son.. I miss you so much.. we love you forever..

-me