Sunday night – back to quiet

It’s been a great break.. some much needed rest, some mch needed partying with freinds.. and soem puttering time. from Sam’s memorial day last Sunday through this morning, our house has been full of people night and day just like old times.. We had max, my folks, trevor, Deb and three or 4 of her kids.. and a few of their collective freinds in some combination every day.. it was wonderful…

My folks left Friday midday, Yesterday we put Trevor on a plane..


nd today the Townsends headed up to Montreal.. and max headed back to school So now.. it’s just the three of us again.. (though this was actually last night before deb and the kids left)

Actually.. it’s just one here.. I drove diane down to Beacon NY to catch a train. I’m in Fishkill tomorrow for work.. so I’m in a hotel.. and it’s very. very quiet.. nice for a change.. ut I do miss our friends and family.

Max and I took a 1 minute stop to see the time cycle on the way down.. I didn’t realize that Max had never seen it assembled..

We had a nice drive down.. mostly we discussed the Logic class he’s taking.. we were doign logic proofs as we drove.. fun in a geeky way…

We had a few minutes extra for a beer in the parkign lot before he caught his train to the city.. kind of fun in a non-geeky way.. sort of balanced the evening..

OK.. I’m going to try working on moving this blog.. More form the road tomorrow..
thanks for everyone’s love and support through last week.. it was very much appreciated.
nite all, nite Sam..
-me

Saturday night- #^$*@$ myspace

Folks,
i’m hearing from some folks that they can no longer reach my blog.. using the old address of htp://blog.myspace.com/johncohn . They get a message ‘service unavailable; Unfortunately, I have no way to tell those folks where to look now.. I think the new link is http://myspace.com/johncohn/blog I’m so sad/mad.. I’ve worked really hard to keep this blog going and I feel like myspace has screwed it up in a day of untested changes.
If you’re reading this.. you’re not one of the folks I’ve lost.. but any ideas on how to get the word out to anyone else.. Please do me a favor and pass the correct link .. http://myspace.com/johncohn/blog on to anyone you know who’s trying to join me here.. Also.. please drop a comment on this blog .. or send me an email at johncohn@us.ibm.com to confirm you can still see this.. I’m trying to get a tally on who’s still out there.. Thanks !

Thanks for helping me get the word out..
-jc

Friday night – this blog..

This is what I wrote 4 years ago yesterday.. It was my first entry in this blog.. complete with misspellings..

Friends,
Our beutiful son Sam died this Monday while
having the time of his life with friends in Florida. . Our feelign of
loss is overwhelming.. but so is the feelign of love that we’re getting
from our community and family.. Sam was such a special person. He
packed so much living into his fourteen years. He was one of my best
friends. Like many people, I wanted to be more like Sam as I grew up.
He was one of the most honest, true and real people I’ve ever met. He
was so passionate about everything he did… his music… his
snowboarding.. his sports.. his friends.. his family. I can still feel
his strong arms hugging me as he did every day when I came home from
work. Sam is not goign to be around to hug me now.. but I promise to
keep his memory alive and pass on his wonderful spirit. All of you
reading this blog could do us a big, big favor by doing the same. Pass
on the Sam… love your families, love your friends, be true to yourself
and be passionate about what you do. The more Sam we pass around.. the
better our world is going to be.
I’m going to do my best to keep
blogging for the first year after Sam’s death as a way of working
through things. Our lives are forever changed by losing Sam.. but they
are forever brightened by knowing him as only parents can. Remember
Pass on the Sam
Love -John

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If you’re reading this … chances are that you know I started this blog 4 days after Sam died..I started writing as a way of working through my new grief..that and as a way for our family and friends to keep track of how wwe were doing. Frankly, it became exhausting to answer the heartfelt question ‘how are you’ so many times for so many people.. Over the past four years this blog has helped me work through the unthinkable.. at times it’s been the one place I felt I could get words around my thoughts…. as time passed.. it became a mix of what I was thinking.. and what I was doing.. sometimes it captured my most painful feelings.. other times it was only what I was doing with my day.. There were times I couldn’t wt to sit down and write..there were other times I couldn’t stand the thought of having to recount another leaden day.. I almost quit writing so many times..
I never did… so .. with the exception of my time on the colony, I’ve written every night for four years.. That includes at least a dozen countries, probably 80 hotel rooms . Sometimes I’ve had more than a thousand readers in a night.. sometimes as few as 90… As of last week when #$%@ing myspace changed their system there were between 400 and 600 folks reading every night..with just about 480,000 reads. I even wrote code which blonks the lights in our ell tower every time soemone reads the blog. I started blogging in myspace because that was the only thing going at the time…. I had a myspace page.. as did each of the three boys. Now myspace is almost an anachronism.. At its best, it was certainly the worst blogging environment. Now.. they’ve made it worse…
Last week Myspace made a bunch of changes in order to try to keep up with Facebook. In making the changes they’ve taken away the ability to go to a post on a particular date, ..they’ve invalidated all the links I had to prior blog entries. they’ve taken away the RSS feeds that I used to copy my blog to facebook, twitter and my own website htttp://johncohn.org .. they got rid of the cutom headers I used to point folks at the samstone webstie and the sam foundation. they also broke the method I used to blink the lights in our house when someone reads the blog. . and they the have provided a way to back up your content.. or retrieve your old posts. Luckily, I sensed something changing when the interface changed suddenly 2 and a half weeks ago. I quickly wrote some PYTHON ode to grab all of my old posts.. .. not a moment too soon, the next day they removed the method I used to track the content backwards in time.. What pisses me off most is that they have not answered a single of my email queries.

So… I think I’m going to have to move my blog.. I worry that when I move it.. folks will loose contact with me.. but.. I do need to do something.

Will you come with me if I change where this blog lives ? Please let me know…

Right now.. I’m going to sleep…
more tomorrow…
looks for changes in this blog

ntite all, nite sam…
-me

thursday night – thanksgiving

Ahhh.. full day, full belly.. just got back from tim and jens from a really nice thanksgiving dinner..

We have a bunch of people aroudn this week.. max, is up, so are my
folks.. trevor is here and so are de and her kids.. all of those folks
have attracted a bunch of friends.. so the house is full. It’s like old
times and I like it.

Diane and I began our day by running in the Jarred
Williams run. Jarred was a friend of ours who died on Thanksgiving of
2001 of a brain tumor. It was his 13th birthday . His parents Dwayne and
Maureen have set up a foundation (http://www.jarredwilliams.com/) that
raises money for other families whose kids are working through cancer.
In the past 9 years the foundation has raised 180,000 dollars for
families in need.

Here I am with Dwayne

There were nearly 200 folks there for the run this morning.. more than
ever.. and it was cold!..it was 15 degrees when we woke up..

It was a 5/10K run/walk.. Diane and I ran the first 5 K together.. which
put us near our house.. Diane wnet on home, and I ran the second 5 K by
myself.. It was a great start to the day.

We came home and the ladies started cooking !.. Here they are in ski goggles while cutting onions…

and.. unfortunaly.. themselves.. but blood sweetens everything..

They even cooked a turkey here.. strange homey smells.

We went over to tim and jen’s at 4..

uhhhhh ?

lots of good vibes there..

Senyah and Adah were happy to keep our dogs company..

Max made a homemade ‘tofurkey’.. with tofu and seitan.. it was yummy !

Tim carved the roast beast..

max carved ours..

Here’s who else was there.. Barry… (ian, matt, hannah and britt’s dad)

Barry’s girlfriend Katy

gabe

Hannah

barbara

deb

dave


Ian

trevor

hannah

matt

jenn

ma

pa

hannah, max

no pictures brit, greg or marie.. sorry..

the doggies all had to stay downstairs while we ate.. they were not too happy with that..

We stood around all that food and talked about how
thankful we are.. and toasted those who wern’t there with us.. Sam, of
course.. .. and Nate.. who’s in Montana..

sanyah and adah ate goldfish and chocolate mil.. yum.

max did a unch of filming.. eager to see it..

finally we all sat down to eat..

then dishes.. I was happy to help out there… since I hadn’t helped with cooking.

then the new tradition.. ‘Call of Duty – Blackops’

Then pie !!!

Sam was very much on all our minds.. Thanksgiving will always be tough for me.. I know..

I hope you all had a good thanksgiving..

I am grateful for the love of my family, my freinds and my community..

I hope you too are blessed…

nite all.. nite sam

-me