Monthly Archives: March 2011

Wednesday night – sam in florida

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I’m in Florida for the day.. .. Orlando to be exact.. and … i’m sorry if this offends anyone.. but I just really don’t like it here .. I never did.. it’s hot, crowded, flat and overbuilt..  but.. i really don’ like Florida because of the memories I have here.. both good and bad.

Sam died about 2 hours from here.. (just writing that breaks my heart)…  that’s a hard memory to have.. the hardest I guess..

but what troubles me is that even my good memories from here hurt too much to think about..    I used to coem here every year for a set of shows I did at Epcott. I brought the kids.. or even the whole family here on some of those trips.. We came s often that they soemthimeslooked at me like’not Disney again !’.. I never really liked Disney.. either.. but it was very good being here with my family

There are many parts of my life where Sam was that I can experience now and remember happily.. I’d like to say being here brings back those happy memories.. but somehow that’s not what I feel here.. It only hurts..  I guess it’s supposed to

I remember one trip particularly well. It was just Sam and Me .. and it was Sam’s 11th birthday.. the great folks at IBM Disney even surprised him with a cake. Our friend Gus took Sam on the rides while I was doing my show .. (I remember my good freind Bruce dud that one while he was here , too !)

I ‘found’ some pictures from that birthday trip on my computer. I say ‘found’ because I’ve known where they were all along.. I was just too… sad.. too scared to look at them more than a glance..

I looked at them long and hard tonight..   It felt so good to see my Sam again.. what a cute guy. I’m out of words…,



gnite all, gnite my beautiful boy..

-jc

Tuesday night – hurry up and relax

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Can’t write much tonight.. I need to get to sleep.. I’ve been SO busy these last couple of weeks.. I’m basically working from about 8 until about midnight every day with only a few hours off for dinner and family time.. I barely made it home in time for Diane’s wonderful 7PM gentle yoga and meditation workshop.. I was zooming home when I reailzed I was in a hurry to relax..

A dumb zen moment.. no ?

night all, nite sam

-me

Monday night – lovehate

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Eggplant.. can’t live without it.. can’t live with it.. I can eat the worlds hottest peppers without flinching.. but give me a piece of roasted eggplant.. like I just had..  and my mouth is on fire.. Same is true for strawberries.. I love the way they taste.. but just one bite and my skin turns raw.. even bleeds… Pineapple i really love, but it does the exact same thing..  and don’t even bring up chocolate milk.. I used to love a nice tall cold glass of chocolate milk.. but i often ended up doubled over on the floor with cramps..

When I think about it.. i have that some sort of lovehate thing going on with other facets of life.. I love going to concerts or movies.. but I hate sitting still .. I just hate sitting still. I love finding free time in my day.. but I hate not being busy ed.. I love travel, but I hate being away from home. I love country western music, but I hate knowing that I like country western music.

h,,,,.. something to meditate on for tonight, I think

nite all, nite sam

-me

Sunday night – supermoon

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Good peaceful day.. Last night we had a houseful of kids over for the night.. One of the high points was watching our neighbor, Robert  compete in the NCAA wrestling final on ESPN ..We’ve known Robert and his family forever.. he’s a great kid, smart, funny and a really good athlete.. One of the kids figured out how we could watch it on the computer.. so we all gathered round the screen to watch Robert compete in the final for the 184 pound weight class. They even mentioned that he was from Jonesville Vermont..!

We were so proud that he made it that far.. In the end ,. he didn’t win the match.. but to think a kid from our corner of the world made it to the finals and is now the 2nd best wrestler in the country is so very cool. We’re very proud of you Robert.

Around 10PM I went over to friend Gary’s and he, his friend Duncan and I hiked up to the Richmond cliffs.. to see the full ‘supermoon’ ./ Supposedly the moon was closer to earth than it has been in years.. It was very bright.. we hardly needed flashlights.. even so , we got  good and lost  both going up and coming down.. It was pretty funny.. the snow was deep and there were many trees down after the storms last fall.. but we still made it to the top..

It was beautiful and bright up there. You could hear the flooded Huntington river roaring below. It was so peaceful as we looked across the  valley.

I used to coem up to these cliffs and yell Sams name from here.. just after he died.. I did it several times.. No yelling last night.. ThoughI did throw a SamStone from the top ..

I also stuck one in our favorite spooky tree

It felt good to go up there … here are Gary and Duncan on our way down.

No pics from today.. Hung out and worked for a bit.. Saw my friends Bob and Bart briefly.. Ten Gabe and I went for a run.. I jumped in Huntington’ gorge (cold !).. and Gabe stuck his head all the way in.. On the way back we met Diane and the dogs.. so I ran again with her.. Nice 6 miles.. now time to get out for some longer runs..

OK.. I gotta end here.. I have a TON of work still to dotongiht.. i don’t like being this busy..

OK.. hapy last night of winter folks..

nite all, nite sam

-me