Tuesday afternoon – Our beautiful son Sam – the call

Six years ago this evening our beautiful Son Sam was hit by a car as he crossed the street with two friends. The boys were all on vacation down in Florida having a great time. When he got on that plane to go down, we never imagined that we’d never see him alive again. My heart breaks when i think about it.. but my heart is full in knowing that that kid was so loving and was/is so  loved. . and he knew it.. he knew it everyday..

I will never forget the terrible call we got when we learned that Sam had been hit  The moments  after that are etched forever  in my mind.. I relive them almost daily .   but the call i like to remember is the one I received from Sam earlier that afternoon..  I saved the recording and listen to it all the time .He would have made that call about now. He  left me a message telling me how much fun he was having with his buddies.. and he told me he loved me… like he did every day..

The last six years have been so hard… i feel Sam’s presence everywhere and his absence deep in my heart. There are times when its still overwhelming ..  there are also times now when life seems almost normal. We laugh, we have fun and we have much love in our lives.. At the time, i would never have believed that possible. I think it has only been possible because of the love and support we’ve gotten from family and friends..   For that we are forever thankful

Tomorrow . the 21st. we will mark the official day of Sam’s passing . That’s the day he was declared dead which cleared the way for his organ donation on the 22nd. In leaving, Sam helped 4 others live on.

We will mark tomorrow with a climb up Bolton Mountain . Mete us at 1PM at the base lodge if you’d like to join us. We’ll then all go back to our house for a lasagna pot luck (Sam loved lasagna), stories, music and samstones.

Ok Sam.. it’s another year..  you are forever in hearts and near us always. We love you very much my son ..

-dad

 

Monday night – the day before

Tonight is the day before the day sams accident. Today is the 6th anniversary of the last normal day i had on this earth.. And i remember it well i had just come back from austin after a particularly frenetic week. . I remember being very stressed out about some bit of business planning stuff at work.. Stuff that happens every year.. Stuff that really doesn’t matter. I remember being So worked up over those meaningless details of my job that i wasn’t sleeping well.. i remember that sam was visiting friends in florida.. I called and spoke with him and he was having a great time. I remember the stress of that week.. I actually remember feeling sorry for myself for the situation i was in..
I would trade anything for that day…

Hug your kids, hug everyone you love .. Thats what matters…

Nite all, nite sam .. I love you very much

-me
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Sunday night – curtains

Peaceful  day.. We started with a walk with birthday boy Tim and Jen in the frosty morning. We stayed to the  roads because we heard so much pre thanksgiving  hunting gunfire in the woods. Came home, took a run, then Diane and I spent the mid afternoon putting up curtain rods in three of the upstairs rooms.

At 2 we put down the tools and went to bridge street to to Mel’s memorial ily. Jane had arraigned a small gathering in remembrance of Me.  It was nice group of people from Mel’s past, folks eh worked with at the land trust, folks from The Daily Planet and many of his motorcycling buddies. It was good getting together to talk. We also got to see Mel and Jane’s daughter Phoebe who’s been a friend of ours for many years.


Tonight i worked with Homer a few hours to marry his metal paintings with my computer controlled lighting. The results are very cool . I’ll try to post a movie if I can figure out how to post it.

 

Now starts ‘the week’.. Tuesday and Wednesday  we’ll mark the 6th year of Sam’s passing. I can always feel this day coming.. and try to figure out how I’m feeling.. Diane’s answer to me is always to not think so much.. but just be.. I’m trying to this year. .. So far..doing ok

This wednesday we’ll mark Sam’s passing by waling up bolton mountain. We’re meeting at the base at 1PM..   then we’ll do a lasagna pot luck at our house at 5. If you new sam well and feel you want to be here.. please join us for one or both activities. We appreciate al the folsk that are keeping us in their hearts this week and always..

ok.. Time for bed..

nite all, nte sam

-me

 

Saturday nigth – circuit bored

I just spent a gloriously non[productive day perched on the couch . With the exception of a run this morning and some marginal help around the house, I spent the day trying to figure out a new circuit board editor  (it’s called fritzing   it’s all open source and better than most commercial tools.. amazing !!! ) for a musical project I’m working on. I’ve been staring at it so long that my eyes are crossed.. but I’m happy to say my routing job just completed with no overflows ! Ok, i know it doesn’t sound like much, but it completely validates my day.

Simple pleasures are among the best 🙂

nite all, nite sam

-me