Monthly Archives: February 2014

Monday night – the matrix

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I had dinner with max tonight.. which was such a wonderful pleasure.. There’s nothing like talking to an an adult son.  he is so much his own person.. a wonderful. thoughtful and compassionate guy. We spent the evening easting sushi, drinking saki, drinking beer and working on our two lives as only tow folks with common genes can.. we’re so the same yet so different..

We came up with a concept tat seemed so right and prescient to both of our lives.. It s  variant of something that Danie has taught us both. She often reminds me that folks either   come from ‘fear’ or from ‘love’. that’s true.. Mac and I figured out that there is an orthogonal axis.. that forms a basis set.. where the eigenvalues are love and strength

 

We determined that all human behavior could be put on that axis.. we tested it by putting individuals and their actions on that graph.. and it seemed to hold….
including us and our love ones.. Strength + love was compassionate leadership. strength + fear was bullying. weakness + love was dependency and weakness +  fear was victim hood..

This was incredibly important to me as I think about my work.. these days and my relationship to it..

ok.. typing this .. I realize what I’m saying here might not make perfect sense.. but drinking beer ll night with your oldestson, whom you love deeply. i ample excuse for that.. don’t you think ?

nite all, nite sam

-me

Sunday night – snow angel

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Emotionally packed day… my dad is in the hospital… so he’s much on my mind…   sending you good thoughts Pa..we’ll see how that works out.

Diane and I did manage to get out into the snow today with the dogs. .. it was about 18 inches think and fluffy.

we hiked up  to Libby’s lookout to survey our valley.

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It was a perfect bluebird day.. 12 degrees and breezy…. The prefect time for my annual birthday snow angel.. (done traditionally in my birthday suit).. Diane held the camera and laughed  while i shed  my clothes, made my angel.. and jumped back into my clothees as fast as i could.. There’s nothing cozy about 12 degree snow… but it was worth it. I felt so alive !.. it’s like jumping in the lake in feb. . only colder.

fade forward to late afternoon. I’m working on a thing for work.. so I had to go in to pick up some printouts.. on the way home, i got a call from Gabe .. his car had sputtered out on the interstate and wouldn’t budge.   I called the tow truck.. but it was goign to be nearly an hour. Luckily State Trooper Barone showed up she called Rod at Blackfork who came in 10 minutes.. We got the car to Sears about 30 min later..

I had to put the key in the envelope at sears .. but guess what.. no pencil or pen.. i searched the car.. no dice either.. In desperation, I wrote my name and phone number on a piece of paper in taco bell hot sauce with a chopstick… desperate times.. desperate measures..

we got home in time for jens’ surprise-ish birthday party.. it was ‘hot pot’. stuff pboiled n soup.. so good !..

OK.. I’m really exhausted.. and cant stay awake another second.. more tomorrow. with news of my dad..

nite all, note sam

-me