Dad is resting now.. going deeper and deeper to sleep. All day we’ve been here sitting, watching, talking..  we even had a small party of sort. we have a pile of snacks (‘pu-pu’s dad called them).. spread out  (cheese, hummus, creamed herring, sardines, olives, tzaziki, pita) and a bottle of Patron tequila. Sam and Martha were here for awhile and billy entertained us all.. felt good to laugh a little. Now it’s just quiet while we hang out and wait..

now it’s about midnight. his breathing is slow and steady and we’re hanging out waiting..   its nice holding him.. i gotta believe at some level he knows we’re here

nite all. nite sam

-me