Yearly Archives: 2014

Sunday night – With science !

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Reasonably peaceful day, just trying to get into vacation mode and struggling a bit to put work out of my mind.. which I really need to do.

I did have some good play time today dialing in the design and settings for the Reubens tube I finished yesterday. The rubens tube was invented in 1905 by German physicist Heinrich Rubens . I made mine with a 5 foot steel stove pipe, stuck a gas line on one end and a compression tweeter on the other. drilled 114 holes int he top .. lit it and played music into the speaker.. Sort of like this illustration.. but I didn't use a rubber diaphragm.. I sealed a speaker airtight to the tube… and I used an iphone as both a signal generator and music source.

Pretty cool !

Here's my fiery rendering of Thomas Dolby;s 'She blinded me with Science' .. (note this is still uploading at 10:48 PM)

And Here's what happens with Big gigantics 'sky high' ( I managed to blow out the speaker right after this one. Luckily, i had a spare replacement vice coil for it.. don't ask me why.. )

Nice little demo.. .. no ?

nite all, nite sam !

-me

 

Saturday night – Celebrate Sam, Donate Life !

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Today’s the day we mark when sam did his ultimate act of kindness. He donated four of his organ and saved 4 other peoples lives.   You can honor Sam’s memory by telling your loved ones how you feel about organ donation. thats the most important thing you can do so they know your wishes

 

 

We were surrounded by love and support today.. many friends showed up and freinds and family checked in from all over. We appreciate the support even after 8 long years !

First to show up were morgan, phil and james.. expecting their 2nd baby as of yesterday.. they stopped by on their way to eat spicy Thai food in the hopes that would get things going !

 

At 1 we met friends at Bolton parkign lot for our traditional Sam day walk up bolton. we had between 6 and 12 inches of snow up there.. it was a beautiful day.

 

we all gathered for a redbull toast to sam at the top.. and I passed around some of my homemade moonshine..

 

 

gabe and I ten climbed the icy fire tower to launch a mortar off the top as we have every other year for sam.. Nothing like being on a shaky 8×8 foot piece of ice with a live munition to make you appreciate life !

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Then we headed back to the house for a pot luck. lots of good friends showed up

we had another redbull toast for sam

and then a proper birthday celebration for Kevin !. Happy 23rd man !

 

then we settled in to make samstones.

here’s ari demonstrating the technique 🙂

 

 

 

 

I did manage to slip out for a few minutes and test my new ruebens tube, it’s a tube filled with propane on one end and music on the other.. pretty good for a first test (after a near disaster 🙂

 

ok..sam.. thats another year.. we all love you and miss you…
more frome earth tomorrow

nite all, nite sam
-me

 

Friday night – Sam’s Yahrzeit – Eight years

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Tonight marks eight years since Sam died…

I still have trouble writing sentences like that..

We always mark that day by burning a candle all day. (In my culture we call it yahrzeit..).. the bright flame cheers me up.

We miss you so much my son Your smiling face is still everywhere around us.. Your friends are still very much part of our lives.   Tomorrow we will all gather and climb the mountain and celebrate your fun and gentle spirit .

I think you’d be happy with how we are all doing..

I was just looking for some pictures to post of you and got lost in looking at them.   What a beautiful boy you are..

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the last eight years has been such a strange journey.. with you and without you at the same time. I took some time tonight and looked back on each of those years. I can connect with myself at each of those days and feel exactly how i was feeling on that day..  No matter how much time passes, you do not seem any further away..

I wonder if someday I’ll look back on today and realize it was still the early in the journey

Alreight my boy.. time to sleep.. and maybe dream of you.. it still happens sometimes

 

i love you forever

nite all. nite sam

-me

 

Thursday night – this night

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eight years ago i was sitting in this exact spot.. when we got the call that our son Sam had been in an accident and would not survive. . There are so many things about that night and the days after that I cannot remember.. that I cannot allow myself to remember. ..

But I do remember standing right here.. holding diane and gabe. Max was away at school… and sam was down visiting friends in Florida..

He’d called me that afternoon and left me a message.. After he died I listened to it again and again.. every day  for months…

here it it is..    I love listening to it still..

He said he’d call us later.,. he probably did.. but I don’t remember..

I do remember that he said he loved us.

Sam has been part of every day since.. I still love that boy as warmly and fully as I did the last time I saw him.. he’s still a presence in my life and will always be..

These next couple of days are hard to process.. tonight is the day sam’s soul left his body, tomorrow the day the world recognized that, the the day after the day his organs saved four other people.

I’m stuck here in the future not able to stop my son from walking off that curb… though I can reach out to him and send him love and peace..I can also send that love and peace to myself and my family as we started that long and hard road that lead me back to now..

I love you my son and wish you peace..

nite all, nite sam

-me