I took most of today off… If I’m still feeling pretty sad. I use the time to do some recreational programs but I couldn’t keep my mind on my work. Sertorius always in my mind. I’m actually OK when I’m outside of the house. But every time I walk in I break down. I guess it’s just how unexpected life can be.

Last night neither Diane nor I could sleep… She came downstairs to make a cuppa tea and then ran upstairs because she was being chased around by a bat. The two of us spent About an hour trying to get it out of the house. We think we succeeded. At the end of that we were so riled up that we decided to go sit outside and watch the tail end of the Perseid meteor shower. We saw some beautiful shooting stars. At one point the neighbors very bright street light went out… And I think it might’ve been a wink from Satori

Around 230 Diane went up to bed and I laid down on stories better and played with some of her squeaky toys.… That made me feel strangely better. I’m doing the same thing right now. I even recorded the sound her latest hedgy made

Again… Probably a strange thing to do but it was comforting.

This sound makes me happy

Nite all, nite sam

-me

It’s been a hard day… I missing Satori so much.

Our young neighbor Francesca threw us a picture yesterday

Last night Diane and ‘Kyle and I walked up Bolton as we’ve been doing every Wednesday night… I put on my satori socks… Diane carried Satori’s collar. The jingling from it was such a wonderfully familiar sound. It makes me cry but makes me happy too. (I recorded it…

I even tried wearing Satori collar for a while

Last night was hard. I woke up around 3 o’clock and couldn’t stop crying… I went outside to see if I saw any meteors and I saw one… I figured it was a shout out from our doggie. I went back in and slept on her bed for a little bit and played with Her hedgy. Believe it or not ..that helped

Today I took chai and the first one dog walk. It was hard… But it felt OK. Flippy and flappy the ducks were still asleep which was interesting.

I managed to get through the day… But It was very hard keeping my mind on work.several times I had to stop because I was crying too hard.…

I think tomorrow will be better

I miss you girl

Nite all, nite sam

-me

Today, hit was with  great  sadness,that we said good bye to our sweet younger dog Satori. She was 12 years old and until yesterday the most happy and healthy doggie friend i’e ever known.  Satori defined unconditional love. She was playful… A great listener. Always so  eager to please. She came into our lives after Sam died and helped us all in so many ways. She was a joyful being and one of the best friends I think I’ve ever had. (I mentioned she was a very good listener) .

Satori was always up for fun.. Her name it “sudden enlightenment” is in Buddhist tradition… Her enlightenment was in joyousness.

She was one giant bundle of free fun.… When her hair grew long she was like a sheep… When she got shaved multiple times a year she look like a very large velveteen bunny

She adored her older sister Chai who is now over 16 3/4… If I’m being honest I’m not sure Chai was as adoring of  her  sister… She definitely knows somethings changed here though. Together they were our great friends… They were a reason to get up and sometimes it was hard to do so. They got us out of the house year-round… they were always good company together


 

Satori along with   Chai was our running and hiking buddy for just about every day of her 12 years.. Yesterday we took our normal walk over to the river…

And on the way home she just lay down in the field. I had to carry her back to the car. After two vet visits yesterday we thought we knew what was wrong with her and she was getting the right treatment. I actually slept with her and our older dog Chai in my workshop last night.

This morning she was too weak to walk. ‘Diane and I took her to the emergency vet and over the course in the next few hours we learned that she had a gallbladder infection that caused her liver to fail and that caused blood clots in her aorta . Unfortunately there was no way that she could have the surgery she needed with that major blood clot in her aorta. The vet said there was really no way that we could save her. It was such a shock…

We were able to get Max and Becky and Gabe onto a zoom call with Citori… And we spent a good amount of time all together saying goodbye… It was beautiful and so very hard

Saying goodbye was one of the three hardest things I can ever remember doing. Coming home and seeing all of Satori stuff… Particularly her much loved toy  hedgehog ” Hedgy”… (Actually she got a new one every six months…one even yesterday)  The Game Hedgy always had new rules… Satori would grab her toy and sneak up behind you and push it into the back of your knees until you grabbed it then she would play tug-of-war until she got away from you and then shake it seriously… Then she would let you grab it back and tell you through it for her and then chased her around. We literally would do it for hours.… I think that is one of the things I will miss the most.
I’m hoping Diane will play Hedgy with me sometimes …

I keep seeing all of her stuff around here… And every time I touch them it makes me cry..  ..
Satori actually donated her name to a large computer that we built at MIT… When I got back onto my email this afternoon they were us tons of notes about Satori. She lives on in that too

She had a wonderful life… We took great care of her and she had a lot of fun. We  will miss her forever and she will always be with us

Good bye Satori.. we love you so, so much !.. I hope there are hedgy’s in heaven

Nite all, nite sam

-me

Today is been quite an adventure. This morning . Like most mornings I walked the dogs to the river

I’ll seem to find until walking home Citori… Are younger (12-year-old) dog started slowing down and then laid down in the field. She’s never done anything like that. I had to call diane to come and get chai (almost 17-year-old) and I had to carry Satori back to the parking lot while diane got the car. Around 11, diane took Satori into the vet. Her vitals were all over the place. High white count, swollenOrgans… It didn’t look good. Diane took her to Hinesburg for an ultrasound… We were grateful to learn that it was “only” and inflamed gallbladder.… It’s serious… But with some rest and antibiotics she should be OK.…

It’s hard to see her so sad she’s usually such a great loving pup… I’m sleeping in the air conditioning with both dogs tonight just to make sure they’re both OK

We love our doggies!

Nite all, nite sam

-me