Today would have been Sam’s 30th birthday..

It’s hard to approach days like today . You never know how you are going to feel. Today was a good day.   Jen brought us flowers and bagels  to start the day.  We spent the day remembering our wonderful son … and for me at least, wondering what he’d be like if he were alive today.    I do know he’d be kind, fun and full of energy like he is  in our memory every day..

Diane made a carrot cake.. Sam’s ultimate favorite and we had it for breakfast with our friends’

Later that day we went to a msmall music festival put on by Fiddle Head.. it included a really good Grateful Dead cover band. Sam would have approved.. when the music got a little too much, we wandered across the road to Champlain vineyards for a few flights of local wine.. they were nice to look at .. 🙂

It was a nice day to spend a hard day.. .. I spent a lot of time that night thinking of sam and looking at pictures.. (there are at least 66 pictures of him and his brothers in our upstairs alone). A

A few days later I had the idea of using google photos to find some pictures of sam on his birthday.. it was so great to see all of these.. I hope you enjoy them !

The y make me smile and cry at the same time ;_-)

Happy birthday my boy.. we love you sooooo much

nite all, nite sam

-me