thursday night – not 18

I spent the day trying not to think too much.. which is pointless.. since that itself requires thinking.

Tomorrow sam would turn 18..

It was a day I thought about when he was born..

it was a day I though about when he died..

What is it about 18 ? .. maybe high school graduation ? freedom ? donno….

It’s an important age…  and still an important age for Sam..


One thing I did get done was to refill the pool filter.. as Diane and I removed the sand we came across the samstone we’d placed in there several years ago.. we put in the new sand.. then I put the stone back in.. it makes the pool water freindlier..

Putting it in there reminded me that a few days again we got an invite in the mail to our friend Bob’s wedding. Bob is the guy who had received one of Sam’s kidneys.. he found us when he saw me put the Sam stone in the water filter on the Colony.. He invited us to hsi wending becase Sam made it possible .. Isn’t that very cool ?

It was a nice echo putting this stone in our filter.

I’m trying not to imagine tomorrow.. because it won’t be like i THINK .


Talk to you from there

Nite folks.. I love you sam
-me