Christmas eve.. one of the most complicated days of the year for me.. I’ve never been completely at home in christmas..It’ s not because I’m  Jewish.. believe it or not  as kids. my family celebrated Christmas as much as anyone I knew. . I think it had to do with expectations.. I was never sure what I was supposed to give or get.. or think.. When our kids were little I really got into it.. I liked surprise on Christmas morning.. the kids excitement on Christmas eve…  …

The last four Christmas’s have been very different. I barely remember the first Christmas after Sam’s death .. It had only been 4 weeks. I remember getting through the day…  Today actually felt OK..Even though  i had some really sad  moments during the day..  I was able to enjoy the day, too.. Diane and I took Gabe to Stowe for the morning. .. we snowshoe with the dogs while Gabe rode.

This afternoon  we all came together to finish decorating the tree. This years theme was Zombies.  Max and Gabe made the head out of ski mask, a rubber mouth, some LEDs, some sunglasses and a hat.. .

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Beautiful !

Around 6 we went up to martha’s for a small Christmas eve gathering.It was great seeing Kevin who’s back from basic training..  Here he is with Gabe in their matching student council vests..

It was a sweet gathering.. I really enjoyed hanging out with our friends this evening.

last stop was tim and jens for a set of karaoke Christmas carols.. I sat these out.. but it was fun to listen..

Now.. it’s time for our long winters nap.. Diane in her kerchief and me in my cap

Merry christmas to all.. and to all a good night..

you too, sam !.. thinking of you very much tonight

-me