I’m in Florida for the day.. .. Orlando to be exact.. and … i’m sorry if this offends anyone.. but I just really don’t like it here .. I never did.. it’s hot, crowded, flat and overbuilt..  but.. i really don’ like Florida because of the memories I have here.. both good and bad.

Sam died about 2 hours from here.. (just writing that breaks my heart)…  that’s a hard memory to have.. the hardest I guess..

but what troubles me is that even my good memories from here hurt too much to think about..    I used to coem here every year for a set of shows I did at Epcott. I brought the kids.. or even the whole family here on some of those trips.. We came s often that they soemthimeslooked at me like’not Disney again !’.. I never really liked Disney.. either.. but it was very good being here with my family

There are many parts of my life where Sam was that I can experience now and remember happily.. I’d like to say being here brings back those happy memories.. but somehow that’s not what I feel here.. It only hurts..  I guess it’s supposed to

I remember one trip particularly well. It was just Sam and Me .. and it was Sam’s 11th birthday.. the great folks at IBM Disney even surprised him with a cake. Our friend Gus took Sam on the rides while I was doing my show .. (I remember my good freind Bruce dud that one while he was here , too !)

I ‘found’ some pictures from that birthday trip on my computer. I say ‘found’ because I’ve known where they were all along.. I was just too… sad.. too scared to look at them more than a glance..

I looked at them long and hard tonight..   It felt so good to see my Sam again.. what a cute guy. I’m out of words…,

gnite all, gnite my beautiful boy..

-jc