Five months today, Sam, that’s when you left us.… We’re at my parents on this fine spring weekend.. and it’s unbelievable to me that you’re not here with us. Simply unbelievable.   The flowers are up, the birds are chirping.. the mosquitoes are even biting and you’re not here. I know it sounds like a cliché.. but it only seems like yesterday I was talking to you on the phone in Florida. It really does feel like yesterday. I can’t figure out how we’ve gotten through these past 150 days… but we have.   We’re getting stronger.. we are sad yet we laugh often.. We all still feel you near.. we speak of you and speak to you all the time. I have a habit of touching the picture of your I carry on my button over my heart every time I consciously think of you.. I paid attention today and realized my hand goes to my heart every couple of minutes throughout the day. It’s comforting to me. I wonder if you know. I dreamed about you last night… that happens often.. not every night like it used to.. but every few days. You were talking to me and smiling. I woke feeling happy. I hope you’re happy wherever you are /whatever you have become..  I love you forever my son…  We all love you. Peace out.

-jc

ps. I have lots of stories and pictures from our day in Boston today.. I’ll share them tomorrow,