Today was interesting. We had one car in the shop, so I opted to stay home and work. It was a beautiful day, so I chose to work in the bell tower.. It’s a great place to work… It’s comfy, the view is great, there’s always a breeze, cell phone and wireless reception is good and there are few distractions. The only catch is that it’ a long way down to get a drink.. or to get rid of your last one.
I spent my whole day on the phone. For some reason it was one difficult call after another. Each call had some element of conflict.. it was pretty weird. One thing I realize about myself after Sam’s death is that I just can’t ‘do’ conflict anymore. I have always had a pretty high tolerance for.. conflict… which is good because I’ve always enjoyed helping get folks to agree around difficult concepts.. Now.. I find that any conflict at all.. even the most minor technical disagreement at work.. makes me instantly intensely sad.. I have no control over it.. and it’s hard to work through. It’s almost as if some wires are crossed in my head. I think what’s happening is this huge shift in perspective I’ve gotten since Sam died. When I feel people getting personally agitated over ‘little’ stuff it just brings me down. I want to take them and shake them and get them to learn form our experience.. that these small things are not worth fretting over.. really., really, really . they’re not…
Anyway.. the whole thing kinda wore me out today.. at about 6 Diane called up for me to come downstairs.. she’d left me a hot bath.. and that turned the day around for me.. Not only had she done that. But she’d bought me my favorite Dr. Bronner’s peppermint soap which she hates.. You know you have a great mate when they buy you stuff that they themselves don’t like… Dinner was fun.. Chris, Scott, Mary, and Mason happened to be over. Max cooked steaks (yes. The kids eat meat !) while we ate veggie burritos.. Diane made her first Rhubarb crisp of the ear out of fresh ‘barb from the garden. It was our first grown edible for the year..
One cool thing we did was mess around with ‘photobooth’ on Mary’s computer.. it gives you an interesting slant on reality…
Technology is wonderful.. actually… on that topic.. I got a really cool myspace msg from Lucie tonight asking me if I would be interesting in talking about the positive aspects of technologies like MySpace and how they help kids. families and communities. I’ll let everyone know where that goes…
OK.. off to bed now.. Oh.. one reminder. The first ‘Sam Cohn Musical Soul’ gutar giveaway is going to be this Friday morning at the MMU underclassman awards ceremony.. Be there or be be quadrilateral. Hopefully every MMU kid who’s interested in the possibility of getting a guitar from Sam has gotten someone to nominate the, It’ll be fun to see who gets it. Sam.. remember, you’re selecting the winner from the bunch of finalists… See you there…
-jc