Wednesday night – the call

seven  years ago tonight we received the call that Sam had been hit by a car… that moment and the seconds , minutes, hours and days  after that  call are burned into my heart in a way that I can’t describe. they’re part of my memory that I really cant go to even still, yet i can’t.. and will never… forget…    i would give anything in the world to be able to go to the day before … even the minute before, when I could have… (could have  what ? )

what i can go to in times like this is the other call from that day, a call that came earlier..  Sam called me that morning,   i didn’t get to pick up the phone, but i got his message on my voicemail…    I carried it around with me until i had to give up that phone… then I recorded it..  here it is

the last thing Sam said to me was that he loved me..  i can live with that… i have too

 

good night my beautiful son,  you are still so much in our hearts..

we love you

-me

 

13 thoughts on “Wednesday night – the call”

  1. Still so very sad. I never knew Sam, and I have never met you. But, I am related to Sam Patz through marriage.
    I still have some Sam Stones. I have place a few around the world. Rome and Haiti and Florida. Such a beautiful young
    life cut short way to soon. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Sam’s entire family. God Bless.
    Patricia Jussaume

  2. John, Diane, Sam and Gabe, What a wonderful picture of Sam.He is so beautiful. And a beautiful memory I have etched in my mind and on my heart of the little boy sitting in my chair getting his hair cut with his great big smile and loving nature. He broke my heart the day I told him I was moving and I would not be cutting his hair and he cried. I wish I had got to know him when he was older. But, I have my Sam stone and my memories of Sam and all of you and Sam lives on.
    Brenda

  3. Technology does have a way of preserving some memories while we all may experience loss in varying degrees of suddenness, it is that which comes to those in their youth that strikes the greatest pain but prior to every loss there still was a lifetime of memories you have done well by fostering the memory for others like me who knew not Sam that serves him well my friend

  4. What a great gift to have. Will always remember his beautiful smile – always. Thinking of you all.

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