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Sunday – March forth

Today is March forth ,  It’s not just a date, it’s an imperative ! .. I think it’s the only day of the year that’s a command all on it’s own.. It’s the kind of thing General Patton or Napoleon might have said to his troops to spur them on to battle..

I see it’s aptly listed in google as *Do Something Day !”..  an imperative I have to admit I completely ignored.. I did absolutely nothing today..

OK.. I did do one thing: I tried finding  texts with the words “march forth” in it.. and I found several  interesting ones..

The first is a poem

A Curse For Kings

by Vachel Lindsay  – American Poet (1879—1931)

A curse upon each king who leads his state,
No matter what his plea, to this foul game,
And may it end his wicked dynasty,
And may he die in exile and black shame.

If there is vengeance in the Heaven of Heavens,
What punishment could Heaven devise for these
Who fill the rivers of the world with dead,
And turn their murderers loose on all the seas!

Put back the clock of time a thousand years,
And make our Europe, once the world’s proud Queen,
A shrieking strumpet, furious fratricide,
Eater of entrails, wallowing obscene

In pits where millions foam and rave and bark,
Mad dogs and idiots, thrice drunk with strife;
While Science towers above;—a witch, red-winged:
Science we looked to for the light of life.

Curse me the men who make and sell iron ships,
Who walk the floor in thought, that they may find
Each powder prompt, each steel with fearful edge,
Each deadliest device against mankind.

Curse me the sleek lords with their plumes and spurs,
May Heaven give their land to peasant spades,
Give them the brand of Cain, for their pride’s sake,
And felon’s stripes for medals and for braids.

Curse me the fiddling, twiddling diplomats,
Haggling here, plotting and hatching there,
Who make the kind world but their game of cards,
Till millions die at turning of a hair.

What punishment will Heaven devise for these
Who win by others’ sweat and hardihood,
Who make men into stinking vultures’ meat,
Saying to evil still “Be thou my good”?

Ah, he who starts a million souls toward death
Should burn in utmost hell a million years!
—Mothers of men go on the destined wrack
To give them life, with anguish and with tears:—

Are all those childbed sorrows sneered away?
Yea, fools laugh at the humble christenings,
And cradle-joys are mocked of the fat lords:
These mothers’ sons made dead men for the Kings!

All in the name of this or that grim flag,
No angel-flags in all the rag-array—
Banners the demons love, and all Hell sings
And plays wild harps.  Those flags march forth to-day!
The second is s in the Book of Morman : Helaman 1:19

19 But it came to pass that Coriantumr did march forth at the head of his numerous host, and came upon the inhabitants of the city, and their march was with such exceedingly great speed that there was no time for the Nephites to gather together their armies.

I even found it in the Holy Quran in Sura 9: Repentance 

O ye who believe, what ailed you when ye were told to march forth in God’s way, that ye sank down heavily upon the earth? Were ye content with the life of this world instead of the next? \But the provision of this world’s life is but a little to the next. 39 Unless ye march forth He will punish you with grievous woe, and will put in. your stead a people other than you! Ye cannot hurt Him at all, for God is mighty over all!

So… folks.. there’s still a few hours in this day of doing..
don’t sit there any longer.. MARCH FORTH !!!!!!
 nite all, nite sam
-me

Saturday night – The club

It’s been a nice sweetbitter day.. i say sweetbitter because it’s diffidently on the brighter side of bitter sweet. The day began with a trip to Williamstown with my freinds Sandy and Michael. d Sandy’s father and my good freind Gunter  87th birthday was today . Gunter’s living in a an assisted living facility for the past six months or so after moving here from the Orcas island in Washington state. Sandy, Gunter an his wife Ellen’s house was on the next street over from us in Houston. I waited at the same bus stop with sandy for countless hot Houston years. In high school we got to be good freinds. Her’s was the local cool hang out house. Her parents were cool too.. we talked to them when we trouble talking to our own folks.. everyone needs that sort of non-parental adult counseling from time to time..
When Sandy moved up to Vermont, I used to come see her here.. it was during one of those trips that I learned of IBM up here.. and the rest is history.. It was great seeing Gunter.. he had a stroke a couple of years back and can’t get around too well. His speech is slowed and his hearing is a bit off..which was tough to see.. but he’s as sharp as a tack in there. While we visited her got several happy birthday calls.. some in English some in German and he switched back and forth easily . It was great catching up with him..

on the way back fro Gunter’s I had to ride in the back of Sandy and Micheal’s car.. under some insulation.. Cozy and warm.!

Later in the day we had a gathering at our house of ‘The Club’ .. The three families are  not really an official group, I call us that because each of us has lost a child. .. One book I read said it is the club with teh highest dues..   Very sad but very true. h

Jim and Sue’s sun Dylan died last April. He was a great friend to both Sam and Gabe.. long time readers here know his story well.. Jim and Sue were here with their son Dustin daughter Dani and her freind Ali. Pete and Carols’ son Zeke died only 5 weeks ago. Like Dylan, Zeke wen to CVU high schoo. Zeke’s twin brother Eben and his sister Sami were here with us too.  We spent about 4 hours just hanging out .. laughing and talking.. i don’t recall a single tear shed.. which was not what I expected.. but was just  fine.  We talked about our kids, living and not.. our experience in this strange new  world of grieving. It was amazingly upbeat, we shared storied, looked at pictures . ate and drank..I think being each others company allowed us to open up in ways we might not be able to with folks in different circumstance .

Pete. Carol and family were doing remarkably well for the short time since Zeke’s passing.  I was surprised to see them so willing to be out and about so soon,,, but as I told someone shortly after Sam’s death. we had to be somewhere all the time.. why not here ?!?!

OK.. it’s late and I need to sleep.. more later.

 

nite all, nite sam

-me

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Friday night – rooms

I worked at home today.. and took the afternoon off because gabe was on vacation. Our big job for the day was to finish his move form his old room into his new room… the new room is the one we call ‘sam’s room’.. It was the room that Sam had just moved into a few months before he died. Before that it was Max’s room.. and before that it was Diane and my room… It’s big and sunny.. and interesting.. it has a stage in it.
Since Sam died, it’s been half a shrine to Sam and half a family room. Honestly most of the stuff in there was not from Sam.. it was from his freinds when he died. The walls were papered with letters picture posters and paintings of Sam from his friends.. In the hours days. weeks, month, years after he died, we would go in there and look at all that stuff and cry.. sometimes smile and just be.. Lately it’s more of a hang out spot, I would still go in there to look at sam’s pictures.. but my heart would not be as heavy.. Its been more than 5 years.. and it was time .. time to reclaim that room

 

 

Last week Diane, Gabe and some freinds started going thorough all that stuff.. I was out of town.. and frankly glad not to have to do it.. in the end Diane did nearly all of it. In the end we have boxes of Sam’s stuff , his clothes, his things… boxes of letters to us and to Sam after he died.. and boxes of … well….junk.. it’s not sacred enough to keep.. but too personal to toss out.. We’ll do soemthing with it.. maybe burn it

Today Gabe finished the process of taking apart his old room.. Again.. quite an  archeology project. I helped by pulling out hundreds of  thumbtacks with him

 

By the end of the day, Gabe was moved in.. and his new room looked great !… It was all him…

He kept his brothers pictures and poster  on the wall.

I wasn’t sure how i’d feel.. but It feels very good for all of us  to make this transition.. life moves on, rooms change…

and some things just can’t change..

nite all, nite sam

-me

Thursday night – Pina

Just home from a great night out. Dane and I went with a bunch of friends to see the movie ‘Pina’ Its a tribute movie made by Wim Winders about the work of Pina Bausch The German Modern Dance genius who died in 2009. The move was a special showing at the Majestic in Williston. The place was packed. Pretty amazing for a modern dance movie.. even one in 3D> We put on our 3d glasses and filed in..

 

here are Jess and Liggy looking cool

The movie was amazing… It was an hour and foty minutes long.. but it passed too quickly ! I really cant describe it.. the trailer below gives you an idea

 

 

Afterwards we all had dinner in Oscars.. The restursnt at the theater.  We had a great group. Artists, musicians, dancers and technicians.. Tottaly great catching up with everyone . Thanks to M. for pulling it together !

OK.. my typing is keeping diane awake.. gotta sleep

more tomorrow

 

nite all, nite sam

-me