I’ve spent the last several days very wound up and not completely sure why.  It’s funny.. most of the past N years I’ve had a tidal wave of things come due just about now.. It’s human nature I think to have projects all complete on a seasonal change.. The funny thing is this year, I’ve been somewhat more careful.. I managed to lower my commitments so I could focus on work.. As such.. i don’t have a huge number of things all clambering for my attention. Instead this year I have 4 things for work.. and I’m really trying to focus just on them.They’re big things.. but manageable and  most of it is actually going OK.  So why the agro ?

On our run this morning Diane made the observation that it just might be the change of seasons..  The change of light, the cold mornings  (though not tonight.. it’s sweltering right now.. still near 80 at 8:30 !) .. the change in scheudle with school coming up. Maybe we even have evolved to dread the end of summer and the coming  f school.. even though that was 30 years ago..  I don’t know why it is..I wish I did have the key to unlock the pattern and give me some ease right now..    bu t i just know that patterns like this are deep and hard to break..

Maybe if I write it here.. it will break the spell..

just maybe..

nite all, nite sam

-me