Today  went well.  had a big meeting that was many weeks in the making.. not all the folks we expected were able to attend.. but  we had enough of the right folks. and we were still able to stand and deliver.. and did a pretty good job. It went much  in fact, it went much better than we expected.. and I think we accomplished what needed to be done.   n. I felt good about it.

That said, today was disconcerting in its familiarity.. a Classic pattern of mine .. phase 1: worry, stress, procrastinate, worry practice, stress, worry, worry,, stress practice some more…phase 2: phase 3:  event goes fine.. then beat self up for worrying so much, then forget it ever happened .. rinse, lather, repeat…

one thing that was different.. i reached out to several friends to help them remind me that I was not goign to forget how much i did not enjoy phase 1..  gotta doing something to really change that pattern.. it’s not worth the wear and tear on my life . my body my family and my friends..

thanks to everyone for their support and tolerance over the past few weeks.. now.. let’s start thinking about those changes..

nite all. nite sam

-jc