Happy birthday Sam.. you would have been 20 years ago today. my son. Even though you are not with us physically, You are still so much part of our lives. I lay in bed this mornign trying to imagine what you would be like at 20. what would you be doing ? where would you be living..? Who knows…. ? It doesn’t matter, I suppose..
What does matter is that you are so much still in our hearts and minds.. and the hearts and minds of so many people. We’ve been able to watch your brothers grow, your freinds grow.. they’ve been here for us, we’ve been there for them.. and you live on somehow in that bond.

I also went through and pictured you at every year..I pictured myself with you.. the day you were born, our first walk together.. camping, swimming.. swinging around to crazy music.. that kind of stuff. you were falways un to be with… I spent a good long time looking at pictures of you. What a beautiful kid.. what a beautiful person. I even went in and listened to some recordings of your voice. it was so good to .. hear your voice

this afternoon freinds will come and we’ll think about you and toast you.. we’ll even cut a cake for you.. wherever you are….whatever you are now.. .. I hope you can feel the love from all of us..

I love you forever my son..
happy birthday Sam
-me