Today was Yom Kippur.. the day folks like me fast from sun down to son down . The time is to be one of deep meditation and repentance.. I fasted.. but i ended up working all day.. not just a little.. from 8Am to 6PM.. ..

Just one more thing to repent about.. Actually its not funny.. I’m working so hard right now that I’m letting other things go like sleep, and food, and family time.. I’m getting tired of it.. but its my own damn fault.

The one good thing I did do was to take a short peaceful walk with Diane mid afternoon.. That was was nice.. You could feel fall

One thing we do on Yom Kippur is to recite the Al Het.. .. ‘the confessions.. , Its like a check list in case you can’t remember all the things you slipped up on in the past year.. and (hopefully) aim to do better on in the new year.. What follows here is one of the new aged cleaned up ones.. The originals have things about about stoning and decapitation which are a bit  too hard too modern sensibilities. Still, it’s amazing how little innovation there has been in sinning over the millinea.. The list still holds pretty true..

For the mistakes we committed before You under duress and willingly.
For the mistakes we committed before You through having a hard heart.
For the mistakes we committed before you through things we blurted out with our lips.
For the mistake we committed before You through harsh speech.
For the mistakes we committed before You through wronging a friend.
For the mistakes we committed before You by degrading parents and teachers.
For the mistakes we committed before You by exercising power.
For the Mistakes we committed before You against those who know, and those who do not know.
For the mistakes we have committed before You through bribery.
For the mistake we have committed before You through denial and false promises.
For the mistake we have committed before You through negative speech.
For the mistakes we have committed before You with food and drink.
For the mistakes we committed before You by being arrogant.
For the mistakes we committed before You with a strong forehead (brazenness).
For the mistakes we committed before You in throwing off the yoke (i.e. refusing to accept responsibility).
For the mistakes we committed before You through jealousy (lit: ‘a begrudging eye’).
For the mistakes we committed before You through baseless hatred.
For the mistakes we committed before You in extending the hand.
For the mistakes we committed before You through confusion of the heart.

For all these, G-d of pardon, pardon us, forgive us, atone for us.

I think my current predicament is that last one.. ‘confusion of the heart’.. I need to ratchet it down a little on the work side.. so I can have a little more peace and fun with family and friends.. I’ll try to make it so..

Hope all my landsman friends had a peaceful and meaningful day..

Shana Tova all, shana tova Sam

-me