Today was one of those rainy fall days where you just don’t feel like going outside I did manage to get out for a run, but that was it. I spent the entire day trying to clean out my closet and dresser..
t was a major undertaking. I’d been accumulating stuff for years.. and was running out of places to stack my clothes. I knew that going through all that stuff was bound to stir up memories.. and it did.. but it was still nice to do.. I’m amazed at some of the stuff I dug out of there… tons of old clothes that I never wear that I’ll be donating somewhere.. and tons of clothes I’d forgotten I had…not much variety but 20 pairs of blue jeans, 20 pairs of khakis. . the nice thing is that everything I own still fits !…
The big finds in there were pictures and stuff from the kids: lots of school artwork. thing they made for me, knickknacks they bought me at garage sales, etc. There were several things I found from Sam.. each time I found one I had to stop for a few minutes… Each piece I could feel in my heart.. handling each piece was a little more mouring and a little more healing. The process of my life now. Here are a few things I found..
A Present he made Diane and me. All the boys make us stuff
Thank you Sam.. I love you forever !
A stack of last years school papers
I also found the 21 year old receipt for Diane’s wedding ring.. which is a good thing, because I need to go and get it repaired.
By the time I was through, my closet was neat.. if not sparkling, my dresser was empty and I was a wreck.. Luckily Diane showed up with Deb in tow and started to make a spontaneous middle eastern feast ! Hummus, babganoush, falafel. Tzaziki, stir fried eggplant, olives, feta, beets.. yum !!!. I made Zatar bread. is this green spice that you can buy in the middle east that’s a mix of thyme, sesame seeds, sumac (usually) and salt. You sprinkle it on pits, drizzle it with olive oil and broil it.. it’s delicious. Zatar is also the name I use when I’m doing my Electricity magic shows. I’m not sure how I chose that name.. it just sounds much cooler and science-ier (science-ier ? ) than ‘John’ It’s even on my license plate ! . Luckily there were a bunch of kids around to help us eat all that food..
I got to talk to Max on the phone tonight… It was so good talking to him even for a short bit. . I miss him so much sometimes. I know he’ll be OK down there… it’s just hard letting go sometimes for me. Right now.. I need to get some sleep. I’m traveling some this week and need to get my beauty rest.. Goodnight to you all.. Good night Sam.
-me
