I’m writing from Max’s dorm room down at Pratt. It’s about 11:45  and we just got here after a very peaceful drive down. It was good to have that time together in the car.. We didn’t talk much.. it was just nice being together listening to music.   I’m not going to write much this evening. Max and I need to make the rounds of his friends. Several of them have made donations to the Friends of Sam art auction that’s happening at JDK this Friday..   I’ll put the details on that at the end of this post….

One important thing to note is that it’s been exactly one year tonight that I began keeping this blog. I have written in it at least once a day through every one of the 365 difficult days in the years since Sam’s death. I honestly think this writing has been the single most healing and helpful thing I’ve done in trying to integrate Sam’s passing . The feedback I’ve received about this journal.. and the connections I’ve made and strengthened with the folks who read it have helped me so much in the past year.   

I’ve started to re-read entries from last year.. in no particular order. .  As I look back on it sometimes it’s been very sad.. others times news.   It is a record of how busy I’ve kept myself.. maybe too busy.. and  It shows me how self absorbed I’ve been ..  I’ve often wondered what it would be like to be someone else reading this blog …  I’m not sure I’d want to know this much about someone else’s life. 

Diane and I tell people now that we no longer believe that there are any real coincidences.. everything means something. I think it’s really … weird/cool/amazing that not only did today mark the year anniversary of this blog. .. but it also marked the 100,000^th viewing of the blog. It happened at exactly 11:40 this morning while I was talking with my friend Homer on the phone.. and I just happened to catch it hit 100,000. . It’s like seeing your odometer got to 100,000 . It doesn’t mean much.. but it only happens once..

 

So.. several  folks have asked me if I intend to keep writing now that a years up. As I said last Tuesday.. the year mark feels  pretty arbitrary when it comes to marking Sam’s passing..  Just because it’s been a year doesn’t mean that I don’t need to stop doing the things I do to bring Sam into my life..     I can’t imagine stopping my writing now.. at the same time.. I can’t predict the future.  .For now I’ll keep at it.

 

Looks like Max and I need to go collect some artwork..   which reminds me.. We want to get the word out for the silent auction that the Friends of Sam are holding at JDK this Friday night. The kids have been making and collecting art for several months .. There will be paintings, hand made glass, pottery, musical instruments, welding.. every possible medium. Even some of Max’s art school buddies are contributing their works.  All the proceeds of the artwork goes directly to helping local kids.  I think this is going to be a very cool adult-oriented event. Please help us get the word out ! Here’s the info on the event:

Friends of Sam Art Auction

Event: Friends of Sam Silent Art Auction

 

                                       

Friday November 30, 2007 from 6 to 9pm

 

Hosted by: Jager, Di Paolo, Kemp (JDK), 47 Maple St

Burlington VT

 

Please Come and enjoy an adult’s night out.

There will be hors D’ oeuvres served, music played and a cash bar.

Donations at the door

Proceeds: To benefit the Vermont Chittenden Emergency Food Shelf     

For more information call 434-6421

-me