Monday night – Sam button

So I was half way to work this morning before I realized that I didn’t have my Sam button in my packet. It’s the very same one that I wore every day for a year after Sam died.. I now carry it in my left shirt pocket.. over my heart.. whenever I where a shirt that has pockets.. When I relized I’d left it at home, I almost turned around.. but I had stuff waiting for me at work… and went on in..

Try as I might. though, I coulld not get used to not having that button in my bocket. I’ve got a custom now of reaching over and touching the button whenever I think of Sam.. it’s kind of an uncouncious movement.. Today I realized just how many times I do that each day.. I’d reach for it .. and find it not there.. and then notice I was doing it.

You know.. I thik that’s kind of nice.

Aside from that.. my day was pretty unremarkable.. I had a brief but nice meeting with my friend Kerry. Kerry and his freinds collect and repair old military vehicle.. I htink I want to take a tank to burning man to drive around.. Maybe Kerry can help !

The weather today was so gorgeous.. that I tried to work a bit outside.. I managed to walk up and down one fo the IBM service roads abotu 10 times while I was on the phone.. It was so bright and beutiful out..

Even te view from my windo at work was intoxicating.. How’s a persons ‘sposed to get any work done when it looks like this outside ?

Ah well. that was my day.. I just ended it by takign a look at Sam’s Myspace page. Belive it or not.. kids are still posting stuff to him every few days.. They also send him private messages.. but I never read them.. they’re for Sam.

OK folks.. time for bed. See you tomorrow. Nite Sam
-me