Another day back closer to treality.. somehow it didnt’ feel s strange as the last couple. I was telling Diane last night that one of the ways that I knew I was getting back ‘in to the world’ is that I noticed that voice in my head.. You know, that constant dialog in your head that analyzes everything you do in life. Some Zen practioners call it the ‘monkey mind’ .. I hadn’t really noticed it until yesterday, but that coice had completely vvanished while I was working on ‘The Colony’. Normally the only thing that shuts it down is my meditation practice. I now realize that the whole Colony thing was like a moving meditation..Even though it was grueling and crazy, it brought me to the same peaceful and timeless place that meditation does.. strange… My hope is to keep the voice in check.. one way or the other. I’m determined to hang on to the sanity that I picked up at the Colony.
I continue to talk to my frineds from the cColony expereince nearly every day. I miss them all. It seems that many of them had hard things come up with their family and reinds while we were off-line. I can’t really go into details here becase we’re not allowed to talk about the show. I do want to say to them that my thoughts and heart are with them all..
Work is starting to settle down a bit. I still feel like an outsider there . I’m trying to reclaim some old habits there, too. I began by taking my ‘path less taken’ through the parking lot. I always like to walk the tunnell in the middle of a line of parked cars. It’s like my secret road…
The day passed smoothly enough. I am spending most of my time trying to get my head around a new set of porblems and find a way to be useful quickly. It’s harder than it should be for me. My skills feel rusty.. my instincts seem a little dulled. think I’m still floating a little from the Colony expereince. I feel my focus returning.. at leas I hope I do : -)
After work I went down town to have dinner with a bunch of work friends that are visiting from New York.. I spotted this great bumper sticker and grafitto on the way
Dinner was great.. there were many freinds there.. two very old freinds were there.. Chandu V. and Peter F. both freinds from Grad school 20 years ago (wow .. is that possible ?).. Diane caem in to meet us after dinner. It was so wonderful catching up !
Hear we are wearing clay goat heads from our bear bottles.. stylish.. no ?
Well that was the day.. Ahh Diane and Gabe managed to get the last coat of urethane on the skate ramp.. I think it will be ready to ride tomorrow. It’s been really fun to build .. Here’s a picture from yesterday after Gabe, Kristin and I finsished moutning the top layer of Masonite.
It’s been great working with Gabe on the rnap project.. I hope he really enjoyss using it.Looks good, doesn’t it Sam. ? . Gnite !
-me