Yesterday as we were busy getting ready for sam’s birthday memorial celebration. I started taking pictures of all the pictures and sam stuff we have in each room of the house. I started soing this adter I asked Diane whether we should put out a few pictures of Sam for the party last night. It didn’t take me long t realize that there was no reason to put out more pictures.. Our house is a veritable shrine to Sam.. and max and gabe.. THere are sam artifacts everywhere  ..

Here are some family pics in the hall

including some of Sam’s artwork…

Sam’s room is full of posters from after Sam’s passing.. we still call it ‘sams room’.. though it’s now our movie/video game room…

Here’s sam dressed up as nikola tesla for school. I loved that !

We still have a ton of all the kids artwork from school

Even his old bolton pass.

Gabe has several pictures of his brother in his room..

As do we in our room…

Even in the bathrooms, there’s sam…

Sam greets you when you enter the mudroom

An he’s there in the front entrance way as well..

The kitchen / livign room is full of him too..

Looking at this long list of pictures and objects I can see how soemone might say that we’re obsessed with our son.. and can’t let go.. . I actually had a discussion along those lines wiht my friend J at Lacross today.. I’d have to say I am obbsessed.. just as I’m obsessed with Gabe. Max and Diane.. and I’d also have to say.. I guess I can’t let go of Sm.. anymore than I can let go of my other two.. they are all part of me.

There will come a time where we rearrange the pictures.. we may even use sam’s room for something else.. There may come a time where I don’t feel the need to keep writing abotu sam and our journey every day as I’ve been doing..

but those says don’t seem to be coming very fast..

I want this kids and his memory in my life..  he will always be part of us…

our house, our lives just mirror the shrine we carry around in our hearts…

nite folks.. thanks for all the love you have all been sending us.. nite Sam
-me

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