Just ending a wonderful lazy day around the house.. I didn’t take on anything that required much thinking.. I did a little garden work with diane.. did some recreational web programming.. then some microcoding to help make some light up hoolahoops for some friends.   THe intellectual down time gave me time to go deeper inside. I’ve been wondering/fantasizing what Sam would be like at 18 .. Gabe reminded us at breakfast on Friday that we’d told Sam that he could get a dirt bike on his 18th birthday.. it was a way of saying ‘not now’.. but knowing that kid.. he’d have kept us honest.

I think he’d be taller.. but not as tall as gabe.. maybe taller than max..   he’d be strong.. I remember his hugs were crushing.. He’d like to go down and visit max, I’m sure.. they always had a specials bond.

   He’d no doubt have been in his  share of mischief.. as sweet as he was.. he was no angel.. I’m sure that his teachers and school officials would have found him a fun and endearing hand full/ He’d certainly still be into sports.. I’m sure he’d have continued to progress as a rider.. his snowboarding style was unique..  I wonder if he’d get into the competitive stuff like Gabe does. I’m sure he’d still be playing Lacrosse.. It would have been fun to see him coaching Gabe..   I’m sure Gabe’s’ riding and lacrosse playing would have made Sam proud.. (maybe they still do ?)

He’d probably be going off to college now.. I wonder what he’d be interested in studying ? My guess is that he’d be heading out west for school. He’d want to be near bigger mountains and more snow.  

I’m sure he’d still have a wide and mixed group of friends.. his friends were from many different places.. different interests.. different styles..  sports kids party kids. music kids, whatever kids, school kids.. just like the cross section here last friday for his birthday

One thing I don’t wonder about are his love of us.. and his independence.. both of those were deep in his soul..

I wonder.. I always will..

gnite freinds.. nite Sam…
-me