We are getting punchy.. Mom and mary just came back with a ton of food and were making fun of it.. We sent them out for cheese pizza and they came back with half of whole foods hardware aisle… Sometimes love comes in the form of high fiber, We're rolling on the floor laughing our **ses off .. While across the room……
Were now 4 days into our vigil.. I guess thats the word for it.dad is slowly leaving this world .. While we stand watch.
I think this is my fourth day here… I got here on wednesday morning and have only left this room a few times.. Its kind of magical, actually…timeless, surreal.. Even a lttle fun at times.. None of us will ever forget it.. Thats for sure.. Its years of togetherness compressed into a 15'x25' box of space and time
Speaking of togetherness.. I took two short breaks today I took Max to the bus for his trip back to New York and I went to my folks house for a shower which I sorely need. While I was there, I took pictures of all of the pictures hanging around the family gatherings. It's an amazing collection.
Here's to you my family.. I love you all.. I love you dad
Dad is resting now.. going deeper and deeper to sleep. All day we’ve been here sitting, watching, talking.. we even had a small party of sort. we have a pile of snacks (‘pu-pu’s dad called them).. spread out (cheese, hummus, creamed herring, sardines, olives, tzaziki, pita) and a bottle of Patron tequila. Sam and Martha were here for awhile and billy entertained us all.. felt good to laugh a little. Now it’s just quiet while we hang out and wait..
now it’s about midnight. his breathing is slow and steady and we’re hanging out waiting.. its nice holding him.. i gotta believe at some level he knows we’re here
Its about 4am and im back in wellsley with dad. I left here around 1 to drive back to vermont, pick up our car and watch Gabes exxcelelnt 'Mr Cougar' show.
It was well wrtht he trip.. Gabe and the four other contestants did a great job strutting there stuff tonight. gabe started the whole thing off with a cork flip off the springboard thatt landed him on the stage. He stuck it perfectly.. Amazing
After the show, i got back in the car and drove back down to boston.. A 450 mile day.. I got back here abotu 2:30. Ive just been sitting beside dad..its where i need to be..
Im sitting by my dads bed.. And he is resting … Maybe hes asleep or somwhere beyond sleep, he seems to be omfor table an at peace. I am wondering what he is thinking.. I am actually wonderign what i myself am thinking. This is a moment that you can picture rom the time you are a child.. Yet it is not the same moment i coul have imagined.. I cant even put words on how i feel right now. My mom, brother and suster are just a few minutes behind me.. So soon we will all be here. It has been nice to have this time alone with dad.. And it will be nice for us all to be together
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