Today, as part of our massive clean up / fixup of our house we tackled our bedroom. That meant goign through the pile of posters and artifacts we’re stored under our bed. Most of them are about Sam. I always have to prepare for that.. I love looking at his stuff.. but I have to get myself in the right frame of mind
Under there I found a bunch of posters that Sam’s friends and classmates made after he died .. Also found a bunch of other tributes people made I remember what it was like getting these tributes.. I remember feeling for all those people trying to express their feelings.. and appreciating the effort. It didn’t make me less sad.. just that Sam was loved by many folks..Thats’s something
I also found other stuff.. things that sam had made, pictures of Sam..
I gathered the stuff carefully.. kept the stuff that matttered most to me.. and carefully dealt with the rest.
It was exhausting , sad and satisfying all at the same time
As anyone reading this well knows.. I’m working to catch up on my blog. I’ve been getting wayyyy behind.. and consider every once in a while giving up writing.. but this blog is such a great way for me to keep track of life. I have written every day since 3 days after Sam’s death.. and the only days I have missed were the ones I spent on the Colony TV show. I cant tell you how often I refer back to a date to pull out a picture or a name..
Anyway, I use memory, my calendar and my photolog to reconstruct what happened on the dates I did write about..
And today… I beleive nothing happened !
Isnt that wonderful ?
Oh.. wait.. I think todays the day that Fluffy headed out to the Playa with Duane and Seasquatch sharing the driving.. Good luck ya’ll ! See you on the playa !
Pretty uneventful day,.. hi-light was (beeive it or not) going to the dentist.. Two things from there.. GOt to meet our freind Drokus’s baby daughter Scout
And got to watch a huge squirrel watch me through the window as I got my teeth cleaned
