Not much to report today..  I’ve received several notes and calls based on the low  tone of my last few posts.   It was really touching that so many folks cared enough to check in on me/us.   It’s funny when that kind of thing happens. I know it sounds weird .. but I’m always surprised when someone reacts to what I write here.. (OK.. everyone walk out side now and quack like a duck !)   At some level I know that there are folks out there reading this  but at the same time I don’t really want to think about what people will make of what I put here. If I thought about it much, I might get too freaked out to write at all . .    I actually got a little self conscious today that I might be bringing people down too much…I know Ive said this before..    but I suppose folks can stop reading whenever they like.. I just can’t stop writing. 

 My intention is to record as much of my thinking as I can get down every day for.. for what ?  Posterity ?  my own future reference.. I don’t know . I spend a good deal of time thinking about my intentions. What do I want from he balance of my life now that Sam has passed ?   I was talking to one of the interns at work about this  today.. I don’t think I ever really gave much thought to my own intentions.. In fact, I don’t think many people do.. I’ve always had goals.. but not so much day to day  purposeful intentions.. Here are my current intentions… in rough priority order

 

• Have a loving and supportive relationship with my kids
• Have a loving and supportive relationship with Diane
• Find ways to honor Sam’s memory and spirit
• Have a loving and supportive relationship with my parents and extended family
• Enjoy robust good health
• Have meaningful work that is both fun and helps others
• Have some measure of peace and ease in my life

What are yours ?

 

Love you all.. love you Sam

 

-me

 

Ps. The folks at Carnegie Mellon University wrote a really nice article about  my educations outreach stuff,,, It’s on the front of their webpage today.  Later, the link will be here. I really ike this one because it points folks to the CMU outreach activities  where they can get personally involved